In case you didn't know

I really like wrestling! From the time I started watching it in February I have really come to appreciate it. I hate to miss even one night! Now that I don't have cable I'm scurrying to find a place to watch it on Monday nights. With Monday night football I will be hard pressed to find a sports bar to tune in WWE RAW for me! Somebody save me!

It started when I began playing CSz in Eugene. Most of the players are WWE fans and they talk about it a lot. I decided to watch it and try to understand what they saw. The first couple of times watching was okay but as I really began to follow the wrestler I was hooked. I had lots of questions and could hardly wait for the next night of WWE.

I've even taken in some of the local talent. I've been to the Milwaulkie Elks Lodge to see PNPW tapings. That was pretty fun. I've also gone to a PNPW taping in Eugene at a high school. I usually see CC Poison, Thunder and the Blanchard Brothers. I think of the Blanchards as the cousins to the Dudley Brothers on RAW. I have yet to make a Portland Wrestling Show though I watch it on 14 when I can.

it all lead up to last night and my first PPV live taping. I was sooo excited from the time Joseph told me about Unforgiven being added at the Rose Garden. He wanted to take Cohen and asked if me and my boys would be interested in going. YES!

I had watched a couple of PPV's up to that point. I enjoyed the drama that would lead to who was in matches but this time was different. this was my PPV and there were people I wanted to see. I got most of the matches I wanted and even the outcomes.

I was at Jenny's Birthday party tonight. Happy birthday again Jenny! I had a lot of fun just hanging and laughing LOTS. I still say we should have gone to Nobby's for 50 cent taco night. It's really good but they watch football not WWE. nite!

I love to BBQ

This weekend we BBQ'd our dinners. I didn't realize how much I missed doing that. Nick was in charge Friday night when we had hamburgers. He did all the work. Adding onion soup to the meat and formed the patties for the first time ever. He lit the coals and cooked by himself. He did a great job.

Saturday was Wil's turn. He chose a menu of marinated steak, steak fries and Dr. Pepper. He picked it out at the store and with a few tips did all the work. It was almost better than a steak from Acropolis! (home of the $4.00 steak.) :) JER wanted to take us out for ice cream but we were all too full.

It was a bit stressful on the start of our weekend. Nick had too much energy and was " bored" there is some getting used to the new digs. My room seems really small with all of us in it. The DVD player is too modern compared to my old TV, the big beautiful one is elsewhere til I move again. It was too big to get up the stairs and in my room. :( it's hard to watch a 19 inch when you are used to a 32 inch surround sound. I know, get over it.

I still have lots to do but it is coming along nicely. I haven't done much since getting home from my "vacation". Thank you for letting me visit and "be" Joseph. On my drive home I noted that I felt stronger and not in pain as I did driving there. I didn't have a choice about the timing of everything. I vow my next move will be good. It will be celebrated and a step closer to the mountain top.

post note
"Unforgiven" was awesome! I so enjoyed myself. Both my sons were very surprised at how exciting it really was..None of us (Wil, Nick and I) were looking forward to the triple HHH Randy Horton match since we didn't like either but WOW!!! I did not want it to end! I'm SSSOOO hooked and have no where to watch WWE tomorrow night! AAAHHHH!!!

Knowledge is power

Now that I have finished moving to my new place I've had time to think about everything that has happened in the last month. Most people would see my situation as pretty bleak. I see it as Marta has nine lives. I know I've used a couple but still have some to spare. I'm looking at all of this in a positive light. so here are some of the things I know:

1) I have " a safe home and a warm bed on a quiet little street" where i can re-group.
2) I have some special people in my life that care about me. They love me for me.
3) I'm a fighter not a quitter.
4) to quote a few people " you are talented, funny and adorable." I'll take it!
5) I will live a long life

Like I said I have 2 out of 3 things taken care of. I will find a job and get back on my financial feet again. It will happen because I say so.

my goals for 2005 are:

> To have my own place
> Choose a career I want and train/go to school.
> Go back to some of the hobbies I've neglected.
> Try out for some sort of theater that is different that what I currently do.
> Enjoy the journey without rushing to the finish.
> Be the best Marta i can be.

The place where I'm currently residing is nice but has to be temporary. it's too far from my kids and too small with winter coming. Nick has to move around. I will worry constantly that he is disturbing my house mates.

I also want to be a dog owner again. Nick really wanted that for me. He saved up and traded in some play station stuff to make it happen. That was last fall. Uma turned out to be a nut job that needed special training. I didn't have the means to help her. we still have all the dog stuff nick bought and a credit at the Humane Society.

Lastly I just want to live my life on my terms not worrying about disturbing others. I like to have company, my boys over as much as possible, watch what I want on tv, shower when I want, listen to my music loud and sing along and leave a mess any and everywhere I wanna. i guess I'm too independent to be a good roommate. I have enjoyed my freedom of living alone.

I'm sooo looking forward to my first pay per view taping of WWE tomorrow. The boys and I are going with Joseph and his son Cohen. Adam is riding up with Joseph and Cohen but sitting in "better" seats with his brother Skyler. Tim, Lillith and Aaron are going as well but have their own seats. hey Aaron and co. we are having lunch at Canton Grille if you want to join us. its old school Chinese that has been around 60 years. its sooo good!

I will let you know how awesome it was tomorrow. I cant wait!! kisses