Dating hurts my brain

So I had another "date" with the guy talked about in an earlier post. We went to a concert so I don't think it was supposed to be a date but "music buddies." He was going out of town with a friend the next morning (road trip) so the guy friend was going to be there too. He is from the Seattle area. The guy friend was very into me. Notice I did not say I was into him. He tried to put his arm around me, told me I was hot, asked me "Did I know I was hot?" He was also busy getting pretty drunk. By the end of the night when we were heading back in dude's truck friend was trying to turn my cheek (from the back seat) so he could kiss it. He would not stop trying. After I got out he jumped out trying to put his arms around me and kiss me. Lets just refer to him as octopus from now on. Dude's reaction? Told his friend to get back in the car. That's it. Normally I would have put an end to the shenanigans early on by a well placed knee to the groin area. Silly me, I thought my guy friend would put a leash on octopus. I have not heard anything from dude. The concert was Thursday night.

As for Dude I am confused. Part of my dating problems is I am a communicator. I want to get to know someone when I meet them. I ask questions and listen. I am thinking like a woman. Guys don't look at dating that way? He does not seem to be trying to get to know me. Maybe I should go back to ladies. Dating sucks.

Same DNA , Born this way

I really think Lady GaGa knows what the fuck she is talking about. Mother Monster is wise beyond her years and I need to listen more. I know that at my monumental amount of years I am still very naive. I also did not listen to my inner Diva until 11 years ago. That is when I woke up in Suburbia wondering how I got there and where the fuck am I? The rest is my history and the growing up years. I have a long way to go and learn something everyday - for sure.

I have recently run into some judgement and misinformed individuals about my sexuality. I thought we were in a much more informed and tolerant world now - especially in Portland. That was a annoying two part thing already mentioned in my world but now the headlines in the local news are scary. We are back to Gay Bashing in Portland. Even worse it is happening in my neighborhood! I am shocked! I don't understand people and their lack of tolerance for others. No wonder some of the alternative life style folk stay firmly in the closet. I have even been selective in who I tell. It does not define me but it is part of me. I'm not ashamed but not everyone needs to know. I am worried about an all out war by Gay Pride here on Fathers Day.

I am an honest person and try to not to judge others. Once you act shady or behave poorly all bets are off but I do try to think the best of people. I think that is one reason I am having a lot of trouble dating. I figure I am very honest and forth right so everyone is, right. Someone recently told me that is a load of crap. If I am not judgmental they are Sammy Davis Jr. Well, they are not SD Jr. but they still claim I am very judgmental. Anyone want to weigh in?

MyBoy Friend

Here I am when I am out devouring women

on the side . . . . of course

"Honesty is a lost art"

"Honesty is a lost art" is something I said to my dad regarding my situation today. My phone slipped out of my pocket at the grocery store. Instead of turning my phone in the person that found it kept it for several hours. We could not get a straight answer when she finally contacted us as for the delay. She did not call the Grocery Store until after 7pm. How do I know you ask? That was the last time I called them to see if anyone had turned my phone. I feared that even with my note explaining the phone, color, where it was lost and my parents phone number. She called my parents after 8pm. The cover was broken but not in a I-dropped-it-kinda-way. I suspended service in less than an hour after it was lost so the phone was not very useful. My phone is not that complicated to use - stop to think who that is coming from. The cover is a tough pull apart but not that hard to operate. The bottom line is she was not the sharpest tool in the shed and could not figure out how to get the damn thing open to use a different SIM card. Maybe she thought it was broken because she could not figure out how to turn it on. That is the only reason I got it back. It was no use to her. So, even though I got my phone back (but not without several hours hassle) I stand by my statement "Honesty is a lost art."

An expernment

I am on Facebook but I keep my friends list small on purpose. I don't see the need for a gazillion "friends" since I am not promoting anything or live out of town. I post on peoples status, see what they have to rant about and invite people to a planned skating night. Anyway, I have 39 "friends" so I "poked" all of them to see how many would "poke" back. Some had a previous "poke" I had sent before so I could not do it. I did this on Sunday. I have received 5 back.

Someone up there has a wierd humor

I will say that the "Greater Being" above is sure laughing at me today. Not one but three men are now on my "What the fuck is wrong with you shit list." A guy friend thought bisexual meant I was the third for a threesome. Also, I have multiple sex partners. I told him "Uh, no." After much back and forth he wanted to set me up with his friend. His friend said "No, not unless she would be willing to give up the girls on the side." That sounds so shady! What do I do go around looking for girls and ravage them? I even asked a male clerk at the store what he thought a bisexual is or meant. He was also under the impression that it meant I would have multiple partners that were mostly women but would have men too. that was either at the same time (orgy style?) or several encounters in a week. WTF is wrong with people? Here is a definition of a bisexual in case you are lost. This is from a publication not Wikipedia!

"Bisexual people have the capacity to love people of either gender. This can include physical, sexual, and emotional attraction to and/or relationships with men and women. Over time in life, a bisexual person might feel equally attracted to men and women or to one gender in preference to the other. The strength of these attractions may change over time. Being bisexual does not define either one's lifestyle or sexual behavior. Bisexual people may be monogamous or abstinent or may have multiple sexual partners, just like heterosexual and lesbian and gay people. Many people are bisexual and bisexuality cuts across distinctions of race/ethnicity, gender, age, class, ability, and religious affiliation. You are not alone, and you are likely to meet bisexual people just about anywhere you go."

Being bisexual means we have the potential to be attracted to either sex. Some bisexuals, like me, may be attracted to each sex in a different way; but basically, we are capable of loving people of either sex.
Mikey, United Kingdom, age 14

A quote from Wikipedia
"The belief that bisexuality does not exist is common in society."


Yes, I am flabbergasted! Are people getting stupider or ignorant? Seems like I should say most men are stupid or dogs . . . . ?

An Easy A

Let me just start with this statement; red heads are sooo misunderstood - duh!

I watched the movie "Easy A" when I was sick and LOVED it! I chose to watch it since I did not find anything exciting on On Demand that day so I figured WTH. I enjoyed the movie so much so I decided to watch it again tonight after the Farm Team show Ken invited me too. (painful show!) I highly recommend it. Slightly mocking but trying to be a John Hughes would do it with a modern twist. See for yourself - really.

Wood Chuck Todd (aka Lobster Todd) is the man of my dreams and what I am looking for in a real man. If you didn't see the movie or don't get it I will enlighten you. He is a guy who knows who he is and what he wants. He has a solid plan for life and pushes past all the crap and is ahead of his time. Secondly and more important he sees Olive for the person who she really is and past all the gossip/bullshit and appreciates her for the person she is- stripped. (thank you Christina Agullera) The scene directly after the "bad date" when Todd drives her home is so sweet. I want to find my own Lobster.

The 80's reference to John Cusack holding the boom box or Jake from 16 candles (excuse that the scene is taped from a person watching the movie on tv but it was all I could find!) pulls at my heart strings. I loved the Thompson Twins at the time and this song especially. I saw this movie (16 candles) with my then boyfriend later husband but sooo wanted Jake to be looking for me at the church. That was and still is the top 10 of most romantic moments in film I wished it happened to me. Over identify much? Olive reminds me of me a bit.
That and the hope of Wood Chuck Todd is finding me. . .

I did the thing you are not supposed to do dating. I wrote to a guy from the online dating site after we had a date, he asked me out again during our date on a Sat for the following Tues then cancelled. I waiting for well over a week for him to write or re-schedule but nooooo. I wrote a very nice WTF letter to him stating I was not mad but wanted to know what? and why. I really did not expect an answer but this is what I got - closure

Hello. My response might was well be a dozen reasons people hate dating online.

I am sorry I have not written. It was rude and I apologize.

I dont have an easy answer for you. My son was here and that takes all my time. I was out in Trout Lake WA on the forest most of this week so busy busy. No excuse I know but this time of year is always crazy as we prepare for a busy summer season.

Meeting with you was absolutely great. You are smart and funny and wow we think alike. But alas no zowie moment. I was completely sincere about meeting up again for dinner or some such and still sorry I had to cancel. At some point over the last few weeks I have not put any attention towards dating. I think I am frustrated and burnt out. And bit cowardly for not being direct with you.

I think for now I am going to take my profile down and hope once again for something a little more organic.

Apologize again for not getting back to you. Maybe catch a band sometime? Maybe we didnt have fireworks right off but I sure am impressed with who you are.

So not what I expected but wow! I know I was advised to let it be "you probably wont get closure" but I realize I am a gal of closure and it was nice to hear the positive things about me. I made a new promise to myself; you can seek advice for different opinions (and listen) but then follow your gut - end of story.

Snapple, would you lie to me?

Fact #801 of my Snapple Green and Black Lemon Tea lid. "It is not possible to tickle yourself."

find more "Real Facts"at snapple.com

. . . . . . Really?

A 47 year old separated Catholic pushed the "I want to meet you but and too lame to write to you button" on the dating website. First off I feel it's respect to write at least a few sentences of intent. This has really pushed my button but not in a good way. He is thin, not good looking and after seeing the marital stat as "separated" I was ticked but his intent (from the site and meeting) "isn't seeking a relationship or any kind of commitment"? Dude! His name implies he is in the medical industry but under employment he has "some college" and "self employed."His about me section sealed the you pissed off the Diva mood. The reason it pissed me off is this. He is using the site for sex when some of us are actually trying to find a decent person to date. He is polluting the site with his shady agenda. Grrrr!
more about shady;
"My favorite things are; camping and smelling the early morning smoke, Hitting the hot tub in the buff ;) Rolling down the road and seeing an antique sale! Saturday Market, Photoghaphy the capturing the special moments that move you.... Enjoying live music of most kinds,visiting ghost towns, and meeting very interesting people......

I am a OMMP Card holder, which means I smoke pot...:)
just because I smoke my meds does not make me a criminal...:/

I have a positive view on life, I know I want and it's not negative baggage...." Here are more of his interests;

Mountains	Lakes	Rivers
Ocean	Sunny Days	Friendly Dogs
Jazz	Old School Rock	Traveling to Scenic places
Air shows	Camping	Fishing
Gardens	Garage Sales	BBQs
Skinny Dippin

Gag

*sigh* My two crushes together

Dont be a Drag - Be a Queen

Lady Gaga

Mother's Day for Grams

Wil had to work on Mother's Day so he could not go to my parents house for din. I should have stayed home but did not want to be a wuss. A few hours into the festivities I was done. I got feeling so tired and sick I just wanted to go home. Once I started coughing I got the bum's rush out anyway. Wil called Grams and asked her out to lunch on his day off. Since I am still sick my mommy bought me some yummy from out favorite neighborhood restaurant Ling Garden. The Lo mien was yummy and the hot and sour cleared out the nose a bit. The fortune from the cookie kinda pissed me off. "You will inherit a large sum of money" That is just a tease to an unemployed Diva!

Happy Mummy's Day!

To all the Mommy's out there good job incubating and squeezing them out - high five! It is the easiest part of the whole job. Me saying that should tell a lot since I can make 'em but cant bake 'em.

Wil surprised me last night with some Mom's Day goodies. He was going out last evening I thought to stroll up to his work to say hey to his co-workers. I asked him to please get me some OJ. I was on the couch sick with the horrible cold going around. I had to keep going last week but yesterday was butt-on-couch day. Lets be real here. Whole Moo on the couch with pillows, jammies, blanket and remote. Anyway, he came back with all the beauty you see in the photo! Tulips, a cute card, dark chocolate covered almonds sprinkled with sea salt and turbinado sugar and the asked for OJ. It was a big surprise! Wil has not had money of his own until recently so I have not gotten any Mom's Day hoopla before. He is not crafty so I never got anything homemade since grade school. (Yes. I still have those) It was a very moving surprise for me.

As for my day on the couch it was pretty f'ing good - except for the being sick part. I have been working too hard the last 2 weeks especially when sick. I needed a day (or two) to just chill and not worry about anyone else. I gotta thank my parents again for the super comfy couch. I enjoyed some HGTV, some of the Absolutely Fabulous (Ab Fab) marathon on LOGO TV, a lovely nap and then the Lady Gaga HBO 2 hour special. She is fucking awesome! Seriously, she can more than dance, love her lyrics, she follows her creative heart with her costume designs and F-you attitude but the girls voice is so strong and forceful it is a joy to witness. The best part of the special is she is herself and banters with the audience and the stream of commentary is refreshing in all the over-staged power concerts out there. The show moves along but does not seem as stressful rushed as some concert specials with the wardrobe changes and such. I like the reality side to the filming where we follow her under the stage to her costume changes. I enjoyed watching it thoroughly. She puts on a show that rivals Elton John, Prince and Billy Joel. The Monster Ball is a must see.

Even after a very physically hard week (and being sick) I was determined to go to the concert at Doug Fir. I was so excited to have 3 bands in one venue that I liked something about all of them. The bands were all good live! Seriously, can you pass up an $8 concert? I thought I would like Violet Isle best then Derby and the Dimes but Derby really rawked! I am really glad I went and really enjoyed live rawking again. I will be going to see the top 2 again. Local talent is pretty tasty. Check them out and let me know if you want to go see them with me.

I am super psyched about my 2 new creative projects! I got a Louie style chair and an awesome Asian style screen FREE! The screen is nice as-is but with some sanding, painting and fabric magic it will be fab. The chair is re-upholster, sand, fix and paint. The chair is rough as donkeys but I am up to the challenge. They are at my parents house so I will take pics today and post. I am super excited! So many ideas are bashing to come out and the feeling is brilliant! I am in creative Moo-hear me roar.