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It is so delightful to wake up early in the morning and realize it's your day off. I did that this morning then I rolled over smiling and went back to sleep.

A step in a better direction

I dont want to be a negitive person. It just isnt me and I dont want to go in that direction. My boys are going through a hard time and I want to help them. I wont post for awaile unless I have positive words to say. It doesn't make things better. Send good thoughts our way.
Marta

A call to help

This is a copy of an e-mail I sent out to folks on Monday to enlist help in my job search. Since sending this out I have gotten a few responses. I have been using all means to job hunt on my days off.

Yesterday at work I had to sign a coaching action that repeats as corrective action May 28th if I don't show a consistent improvement. I see I'm on the way out if I cant "get it" the way they want. I showed improvement in my stats before I signed it (my Sup forgot to check after printing my report card.) BUT I need to consistently show a 5 percent increase weekly.

Hi all,

I know some of you may think I have died or just don't like you anymore. That is not the case at all! I have been putting all my energy into my new job. I so wanted this to be my turning point to get things back on track in My World. I have been giving 110 percent to this but realize this just isn't a good fit for several reasons. I'm not a quitter but like many of my former classmates I realize this isn't for me. (my class size went from 23 to 6 in 7 weeks) I will stick it out until either I find another job or they let me go. I hope I can make it my decision!

The reason for this e-mail is to enlist your help in my job search. Everybody in daily life sees ads, hears of a "do you know someone", or just thinks outside the box. Any ideas, leads, no matter how odd or far fetched it seems please pass it on to me! I wont be offended as long as you wont be upset if I am not interested.


My few requirements:
~ Within the Portland Metro area
~ Pay is at least $8.oo an hour
~ Does not pay in one dollar bills while I gyrate to bass booming music


Thank you all for reading and THANK YOU for any leads in this search!

Hey all!

Just wanted to take a moment to check in with all y'all. I have been very focused on what I need to do to survive in this world. (mostly my job) It has taken most of my attention and emotional output to deal with. I am giving 110 percent to this job knowing I need to do this to survive. I gotta tell you I could give all this, my first born and all I own in this world but "they" would want more! I'm not giving up but I am looking for another job in the mean time to cover my ass. HELP!!!

The feelings that are trying to take over are panic, generally scared and a blackness wants to consume me. I have succeed because I have no fall back at this time. What I mean by that is I am the only income with no unemployment or family to bail me out. If I lose this job I have nothing. I have a strength I don't understand but rely on. I hope it will get me through this too.

Seriously, if anyone knows of ANY job please pass it on! I apprecieate any lead no matter. Thanks! :)

The show on Saturday was so fun! Deep Dish is a great long form group and I'm glad to be in it! All of us Rawked but I would like to give big kudos to Ken. He is newer to the group and had to this point never done anything outside of a Comedy Sportz farm team show. Ken, you had an awesome show (period!) in your first SLN and I hope we all do more in the future! You rawked!

" I follow the heart not the anatomy." Alice

THE long form group performing Tonight! DJ, John, Karen, Ken and Me! 

Proud of me!

Today I got my second positive action form (in two weeks) put in my file. After helping/explaining things to the customer they were so happy with the service I gave them they asked to speak to my Supervisor to gush. I may not be the techie they want but I got the Customer service down pat.

Today's customer had notes from other rep's saying he was nasty and abusive. He wasn't that way with me but I was ready for what might come my way. He said I was the first rep to take the time to explain things to him. *glow*

I'm still standing (or sitting as the case may be)

Well, I'm about to start another work week. (this is my Sunday) I'm doing better than last "Monday" but still struggling to do all they want in a phone call. I have been monitored and had one (or more) Sup's split in to help me out. The good news is I have a pleasant calming voice and a matching manner that the customers like. I'm just not getting it all the way they want it. Customer service 10 call sequence 5. It is usually one thing missed but that makes it automatic 50 percent. They have faith in me and say I have a lot going for me. I arrive early everyday in dress code, am pleasant and courteous and listen to the "report card" taking the positive. I am trying!

I hope to post about something more than my job one day soon. For now I will leave you with the reminder that this Saturday is THE long form show you should attend this year!

Deep Dish is Saturday May 14th at 10:45pm. We are the after hours show that follows the Comedy Sportz show. The address is 1963 N.W. Kearny. Hope to see you there!

Happy (true) Monday!!

Today was my Monday and from the time I arrived at my station it felt like one. I am having trouble getting a handle on this job. It both frustrates and scares me. I'm technologically challenged. I have never had a job like this and am still surprised they hired me! These are facts not whining. I'm too stubborn (and in need funds) to quit. It isn't the true Marta (to give up) for good or bad. Look at the length of my marriage. They did scare me today by pulling me into HR especially after I was monitored and got a 33 percent! We are all getting a mandatory raise. (WTF?) I totally suck but you are gonna pay me more to do so? SWEET!!

After work I needed some stress relief. DB was nowhere to be found and I don't currently have a galpal (any takers for the position? Apply to me. ) so I went for a bike ride. I so needed that! A bit over an hour of traversing my neighborhood to get a feel of the layout. I made some connections of the streets I know and connected the dots as it were. the temperature was just right. I'm smiling thinking of it now. I even tossed in an errand at the end of a deposit at the bank.

The sights and sounds of my neighborhood make me happy. This is my home for now. I really am getting that sense and feels so good to me. I still find myself lost at times "being orphaned". It thrills me and scares me to know I am in charge of My World. In times of crisis it totally sucks especially since DB lives so far away. I'm a very physical person and take great comfort, renewal and strenght from intimacy. It feeds my needs and soul. In times of stress I feel like the world is coarse sandpaper rubbing against me. The last couple weeks have been tough and I feel emotionally raw. Yuck. Hope to remedy that soon! ;)

I look forward to attending CSz workshop tomorrow (second week in a row!) and getting my funny on! That feeds the soul too. I just need to take it one day at a time and breathe.

This is my Sunday

I really tried to make the most out of "My Sunday" today. I got my bill pay re-worked and my bills mostly worked out. I am in sticker shock but trying to see where I can shave off some expense so I can breathe. Trial and error. DB gave me some grounding thoughts/advice that is still sinking in. He said " With what you make in a month you have rent covered." That is so true. I just need to relax and focus. The job has sucked some of my common sense out of me!

I had high hopes of doing soooo much today. I got the nagging important things done so I can start my work week with that off my mind. I wanted to bike, finish the kitchen cleaning, read a book and oh so many things! I will slowly do more and more in time!

Yesterday at QK I didn't get help on the U-neck Vest but I did start a new thing. I took some leftover yarn from my stash and am making myself a cell phone cover. It's a pink cotton/silk mix with a thin pink ribbon thru it. I'm combining it with a metallic thin ribbon yarn in pinks and silver. It looks pretty cool. Someday I will take a pic. :)

Going to go relax and veg before sliding into sleep. Happy work week all. Don't let the stress kill you or the hours get you down!

BTW I missed you at QK D. Can you believe I made two in a row? Dare I go for three? *kiss*

" And gently re-focus" Jessica Mendenhall

Lazy Sunday

Lazy is as lazy does. What I mean by that is I did the "hard" chores yesterday so I could have some play today. This afternoon I plan to go to QK! Karen was tormenting me yesterday (at DD rehearsal) by telling me Mable's is having a sale. I must be strong! I have projects in waiting and yarn to spare. (in my stash) It is so hard to be good there because they have it set up so well you just want to buy everything! I do have a small credit at Lint that I'm holding onto. I know I need to wait until I can pay out of pocket some to use said credit.

After my time at QK I am planning to go watch the Farm Team show (CSz) I'm not in. . . cause I can! I don't have to be up at 4:45 am now! In fact since I have Monday off I can do whatever I want! SWEET!

I must get off now as Wil was kind enough to let me "play thru". Happy Sunday all!