Three whole days of bliss!

I'm so looking forward to a three day weekend! I have the boys this weekend so this will be a short post. I will hopefully be able to untense before I go back to the phones on Tuesday.

It is going a bit better but I'm so stressed by the speed they threw us into the actual job! There is so much you are supposed to say and not say! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

*feeling the hot breath of teenagers on back of neck* Well gee folks I guess I have nothing more to say at this time (WTF) so I'll just log off.

I survived!

My goal this morning after the announcement came was simply to survive. If "traffic" allowed we were going solo. *gulp* I had to go solo on the phones today. I wasn't mentally prepared but didn't fuss and rolled with it. For the most part it went well and I only stared at the screen in total blankness a couple of times. I'm super at the small talk while I'm trying to get a handle of what I'm doing. People seemed to like me and I stopped a customer from switching to the competition! I'm drained by the end of the day and scattered. A bit stressed (sorry D.B.!) I'm hanging in there but not sure that this job and me are a good fit. For now it's trying to pay the bills so I will keep on keeping on.

Good news (bad news) for me! We get to start at a "normal" time starting next week! 9am instead of 6am! Bad news is I have to work Saturdays now. 2 or three weeks of that then a shift bid for one to two weeks followed by a shift bid that lasts. . . .4 months. BTW subject to change by the time it comes out of the trainers mouth. :)

That's it for me! Gotta nap so I can go to workshop tonight!!!!!!!!

He is a good kid

My son Nick has been having a real hard time this year. I have really had some up's and down's with him. Tonight he had a drama production at his school. Drama is his only elective he has. Even though he had a small part I could see he was having fun. It was good to see him smile and enjoy what he was doing.

Finally a CSz moment!

I have not been able to participate in CSz (Portland) for well over a month! Between lack of funds, moving and starting my new job it's been out of control! I still have yet to make it to a workshop since it is way past my bedtime! :0 Seriously, I hope to get this cold under control so I can take a nap after work go to workshop and be okay the next day. I did go to D.D. rehearsal last Wed. but it was very hard on me with the cold and all. My buddy Jamie was bummed that I was not my usual quirky self the next day.

I did get to play in the show in Eugene Saturday night. I was still sick but bucked up (thanks to a sugar free Red Bull) and played my little heart out. I set goals for myself in the show and felt I achieved them which makes me very happy! (and proud!) D.B. loved my song about "Spaghetti" in musical rumble. "I twirl it on my fork and stick it in my hair." Guess that's why my hair is red. ;)

I'm trying real hard to get rounded now that I have a routine down. Just when I was getting antsy to jump out there and do some playing they throw us on live calls! After a morning of that we headed back to the training center for some more learning and a test! How much can we take in one day! Live calls are stressful and we as a group weren't mentally prepared for that! We were told "listening in to live calls" today. What I'm trying to say here is I'm trying to not do all work but I'm wiped out by the end of the day. Bear with me a bit longer and I hope to make it out to a fun activity soon!

Now I must go to the store then make dinner! Wil is here until my bedtime so I will make him watch Charmed with me!

I'm so happy I found Queer Knitting on craigslist and decided to start knitting again! The understanding I feel in this group of (mostly) women is amazing. The layers of commonality we have to each other is wonderful. First we are there because we all love to knit but then we have so much more in common. We all enjoy women, we are mom's and most of us are quirky with a great sense of humor. I feel that comes from being different from the "norm" because of our sexuality. You can either get angry or learn to laugh at peoples reactions and actions to your choice. Most of us choose humor.

I forgot how much all this comforted, brightened and enlightened me. We help each other with projects, our relationships, jobs/school our lives! We joke with one another in a way (I feel) straight people don't. We have nothing to hide (for the most part) from each other so it all comes out. It is a safe environment.

It was so nice to be welcomed back! I got caught up with the gals and got my project back on track. The conversations can go from complicated math equations that help figure out how many yards in an unmarked ball(s) of yarn equals out to "Lesbian haircuts". I feel I can say anything to this group and offend or feel embarrassed. Better than any family I've ever had and cheaper than a therapist. Well, it depends what your project.

We all join groups for different reasons. Usually all you have in common is the one thing. As example I used to belong to The Edsel Car Club. Mostly the only thing people had in common was the love of old cars. That's great but if that's all you have to talk about it can get stale. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed my time talking cars with the guys and learning to judge cars in meets. So well in fact I got to judge at the big meet in Forest Grove "Concourse de Elegance". With the ladies I talked knitting and dressing up "50's" for meets and tours. It was fun but I don't regret not being in the club anymore. (gave it up in the Divorce along with the 1959 pink Edsel Convertible w/ continental kit)

I have so much more to say on this subject but have no time to fully form a thought these days much less type it! So thanks QK for the warm hug I get from all of you!

Much to say about everything but. . .

I so enjoyed Elvis Costello in concert! He was amazing! It was a long wait from the time I purchased the tickets to the concert date. I have wanted to see him since I was 17 but it never worked out! I had such a crush on him *sigh*

It was great to see him in a smaller venue like The Roseland verse The Rose Garden. We (D.B. And I) were also lucky enough to find a pocket of space in the very back where we could always see him! I spent most of the concert leaning back on D.B. Who was leaning on the rail. Who needs a chair? Not when I can snuggle with my D.B.!

I cant believe how long he performed. The highlights were he sang some of my favorite songs including two from Almost Blue. The other was a song he did without the mic. His voice is as awesome as ever! I will gladly go again to see him - Well worth the price!

As I said in an earlier post I am getting a bit used to my schedule but I totally destroy it on the weekend! Friday night I only made it to 10:30 but last night I had my buddy Jamie from work over and stayed up til 12:30! I slept in til a bit after 9 but am really tired today. I'm sure I will gladly crawl into bed at the appointed hour. :)

I'm really proud of myself for all I have accomplished the last couple months. I have worked hard taking care of things. I'm grateful to have a job. It's not my dream job by any stretch of the imagination but I'm giving 110 percent! It has been tough several times but I have hung in there and (mostly ) kept my head. I'm glad I'm so stubborn and can rely on Me!

Today I finally get to knit again! I'm going to Queer Knitting to see the gals and get back on track with my sweater. I just couldn't do it before. So much had to get done and no time for the simple pleasure of knitting. *gasp* I really didn't have my wits about me for it anyway. By the time I got home and took care of clean up, make dinner and the lunch for the next day, wash/steam clothes, take care of any biz stuff I was too tired to do anything but veg in front of the TV. I was pretty stressed.

I'm going to let the boys have use of the computer for the rest of the day. Hope to post again soon but only time will tell. Enjoy the simple things!

Isn't it cute?

Friendster Joint Horoscope for April 15, 2005

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You and Joseph can overcome any bumps on the road.
If emotions were the ocean, the two of you would be at high tide, with water, water everywhere and not a drop to drink. It's not necessarily a bad thing, however; these deep feelings, and the expression and exploration thereof, are the stuff of life -- and of true friendship. Some old issues can be resolved, and forgiving and forgetting is rarely easier than it is at the moment. Another bonus: Intuition is also flowing, letting you both perceive stuff you've only known on a subconscious level up 'til now.
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You and Joseph are flying high today!

You and Joseph have smooth sailing ahead.

You and Joseph can overcome any bumps on the road.

Hello!

Hello all! Since starting my training I have been focusing on that and getting used to the schedule. I have not had the time or attention span to do most of the things I would normally do such as:
Knitting
CSz
Computer things
Hanging with folks
Staying up past 8pm on a weekday

Yes, I have taken this job training seriously. I am getting some what used to things and doing a bit more here and there. Sadly for me CSz isn't one of them. I just cant stay up "that late" and not get cross eyed in class. They are throwing 3 months of information at us in 4 weeks so you gotta be awake!

I'm in week 3 of 4 for class work before we go as a group on the floor for two weeks. After that we are on the job! Hopefully I will get a good schedule in my shift bid. They are three month bids and we have been warned that we might have to work nights. I really hope not.

I'm still adjusting to the glasses but I don't feel like such a baby now. They put the wrong lens style in so that it made it really hard for me to see up close. They have re-made them and what a difference! If I remembered to send the pics from my phone I will post them. Gotta go relax in front of Sex and the City now.

You can't tell but they are a cranberry red frame but the ear pieces are yellow.

you can see the yellow a bit where the ear piece meets frame

Don't forget to change the clocks!

I find it funny how some electronics help themselves while others wait for us to notice and help them. The cable box and computer changed the time for themselves while the cell phone, land line, microwave and everything else waiting patiently for me to get to them. It surprised me that the cell phone was not automatic.

It was nice to have my boys,Joseph and Cohen over night Friday night. It was some extra time with my boys I was glad to have. Joseph and Cohen were in town for a concert and crashed at my place after. I'm so glad to have the space!

It was also good to see Deeg Friday night. He came over for a late dinner after spending time with his daughter. I enjoy having the freedom of my own place with room to do things. We made dinner and had some nice red wine, Watched a TV show he is addicted to as well as Anchor Man. I hadn't yet seen it and enjoyed it. The boys had already seen it but Wil hung out with us for a while. We lost my assigned parking spot when we went to the store after dinner and got something for desert. The lot is to be re paved and painted soon but until then most of the numbers are beyond faded so. . .

Since starting my training I have had a headache. I thought it was because I was not used to using my reading glasses much. I really rarely use them. I saw a commercial for an eyeglasses special at Binyons so I went there yesterday. Their frames were not attractive and I didn't like the feel of the joint. There was also a LensCrafters in "my mall" so after cruising the Gap sale for work clothes I went there.

I decided to shop for frames first to make sure there were some nice ones. I found 6 really cool frames. If I have to get glasses they were going to be fun! The optometrist was already gone for the day so after picking and taking prices I went home. The eye exam is separate and to be honest with you I was skeptical about an eye exam done in a mall. Boy was I wrong.

Not only did they check my vision but they also did a glaucoma check, pupils, cornea and other stuff I cant remember. It took almost an hour and felt like every possible eye thing was gone over. They answered all my questions and explained everything as they went along. I would highly recommend to anyone to take advantage of an eye exam if you have not done so in awhile. I felt I got my $69. Worth. My glaucoma check flagged something I've been worried about. I have been borderline glaucoma for 5 years. My left eye checked very high so they checked it again. It was still high and they have a return visit in one month. If it isn't better I will need to go to a specialist. Ouch.

So yes, I now wear glasses all the time. My reading glasses I had were a joke! The old prescription was plus 25 which is now plus 150. I do feel better (no headache) but have to adjust to all glasses all the time. I really like what I picked. I'll try to get a picture up in the next few days!

I made it!

Wow, The first week under my belt! The training is either completely boring and gone over TOO much or it's intense. Tuesday late in the day to the end of Thursday were intense! We lost four people in the first week. Some thought the curriculum was too much. Now, I was near tears by the time I got done on Thursday. I was not the only one.

They are cramming three months of need to know into four weeks of classroom and two weeks of "nesting" on the floor before we are on our own. Some of us were talking on our first break Friday and we decided it's a weeding out process. Maybe they should have a better overall process. Just my opinion.

I have the boys until later this afternoon then I can relax. There is so much I want to do but don't have enough time or energy! Right now I'm being not so subtly stared at to get off the comp. I'll try again later.