Bucket list October 25th San Diego!

 Always wanted to surf. 52 is just a number, Bitches!

 Getting in my zone looking at the ocean while listened to my wise 20 year old (old soul) instructor, Mike.

After half my lesson time we took a break. I was tired! I was proud of myself and calling the board my bitch!

I really enjoyed finally going to San Diego! It was a spontaneous get away with little or no planning on my part but enjoyed the adventure and every fucking moment! I was at the beach everyday I was there and especially at sunset. The small town feel, great weather and laid back atmosphere has really made me want to move there! I would appreciate being outside doing activities I love year around! That is something to plan for!

Music that instantly takes me back to my driving time around San Diego are:

Colony House "Silhouettes", Ed Sherrian "Don't". Sia "Chandelier", Clean Bandit "Rather Be" and Robert DeLong "Long Way Down". Honestly they were always on the radio and playing in the bars along the boardwalk so they are as much a part of my trip and enjoy the "Flashback" to the peace and happiness I felt inside myself on this trip. 

The surfing was "bucket list" and cant wait to do it again. Renting a hybrid bike and biking along the ocean and Mission Bay was so rewarding and beautiful it squeezes my heart to think about.

Awesome occurrences!

I am soooo excited to say…I am going to see UFO in concert! They are playing in September but I can't wait! I have loved them since my DB (now DF=Dear Friend) introduced me to their hard- rocking goodness. Thank you DF! We were planning to see them in 2005 or 06 (I cant remember the year for sure) but the date got canceled! I was very sad and really felt I missed out on mighty rawk! Excitement abounds! You too can buy your own ticket and join me for a once in a lifetime RAWK!


"UFO are an English heavy metal and hard rock band, who were formed in 1969. UFO became a transitional group between early hard rock and heavy metal and the New Wave of the British Heavy Metal. UFO were ranked #84 on VH1's 100 Greatest Artists of Rock."

It IS a wonderful life

I'm happy with the path I have chosen. I like myself and the person I'm evolving into. I have two great boys that care about and try to protect me. I have great friends that I can turn to in a pinch. I get a lot of pleasure from my time at CSz. I have tried many new things and found new interests. It's been good to get to know the un-edited me.

I guess you could say I have had a string of hard luck this year. I've tried to keep a positive "the glass half full" mentality going. I keep going forward and tackle the problems head on. Honestly I don't see how it helps to bitch and moan when things go wrong and I'm too stubborn to just lie down and give up anyway. I'm surly being tested for some reason that I don't quite understand. Well my friends, I'm in a pinch now and could use your positive energy and help.

Three of the things you've already read about me in this blog are 1) my ankle is still a concern. I didn't get to finish my last round of P.T. or do my follow up to the ortho doc. 2) my lack of job and funds are making me temporarily homeless. I truly hope to change this ASAP. I have a place to store my furniture but I'm not sure where I'll be once I leave my apartment but I'm not freaking out about it. 3) no health insurance.

here's what you don't know . I have been diagnosed with Cervical Cancer. It's in the early stages and they don't think it's spread. I have a laser surgery at the end of the month to remove the cancer they see and take more biopsies. It was out of the blue and still seems unreal to me. I have a great doc who is being aggressive to ensure a long run for yours truly.

I don't want your sympathy but I DO need help to get through this. I have no more ideas to get me back on my feet. I'm already in debt from my ankle injury and don't know what to do about the staggering medical bills! I need a job, a place to live both temporary and permanent. Any ideas on anything would be great. I don't have major job skills since I was an at home mom and never finished college.

I'm a bit overwhelmed by all that is happening at once but I assure you I'm taking it pretty well. I could use more laughter so any cheesy jokes you have bring them on!

Let me end this post with this. "The Explosion" is a band I saw on my Birthday. They were the warm up band for "Burning Brides". I really enjoyed their 70's punk style. I really identify with one of their songs on the CD I bought. It's called "Here I Am". The refrain is:

well here I am here I am
I'm back at the crossroads again
oh let me stand let me stand let me stand
on top of the mountain again

I know I'll be back I just have to get through this . I'm a bit dazed but I'm still standing. It is a good life and I feel lucky to have the "things" I have. Thanks for your support.