Monday, January 30, 2006

How do I right My World?

I got the call I was both hoping for and dreading would come. The temp job has called me back again. I really need to earn money now but this job has gone from super easy and boring to full of rules to follow that aren't defined well. What I mean is the client the company makes calls for was paying a lot of people to do a job that we don't know how to do the right way. Now the client expects all of us to do it right without any real training or all of us get fired. I think it would be an easy job but it's hard to play the game if you don't have the rulebook.

Last time they called me back it was for one day and was told to come back on Monday. They kept calling to say wait until tomorrow . . . . that was two weeks ago. Now they are telling me to come back tomorrow.

I need a job I'm excited to go to in the morning that I earn enough to take care of my family. I seem to be stuck in this rut and cant get out. I am trying yet . . . don't see this as whining but frustration at my situation. I just want a life like everyone else. Go to work, come home, spend time with family and friends, have a bit of spending money for whatever and know what you will be doing tomorrow, next week or dare I say next month. I'm tired of working so hard and going nowhere. Yes, I'm still standing but I need a rest and some positive flow.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

From the Vogue Kitting Fall/Winter 1985


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I must still have patience :)

After years in the making I have finally finished Vintage Sweater! I have sewn the last bit and put it in a dryer bag (no heat) to fluff. I may even wear it to the Farm Team show tonight! There is one at 7pm tonight though I am not in it. You gotta go to workshop to play in a show. :)

Ken was very kind to come by last evening with "sick food" for me. He happen to be here at 6pm when we had our little earthquake. Just a 2.8 on the Richter scale. We were all in a different part of the room when it started rocking. We looked at each other in disbelief. Ken left soon after mumbling something about not wanting to die in a tall building. He also didn't want Marta germs. Do you blame him?

Wil has his "friend" over for a (supervised) Monty Python marathon. Wil is also proving that he knows how to cook and is in charge of dinner. Let me set the record straight by saying it isn't me that thinks supervision is necessary. Though Wil is a good cook I will be passing on the very spicy, creamy chicken concoction. I will stick to the soup and crackers Ken brought me. (Thanks again, Ken)

Saturday, January 28, 2006

If you were wondering

I had a relapse on the stomach thing yesterday. I was feeling sooo much better the night before. I was up to solid food and had a fairly plain turkey sandwich that tasted incredible! The next morning I seemed okay so I did my usual morning thing. . . coffee. I had an interview at 10:15 and wanted to be on my toes. I already felt like and looked about 20 years older than I normally do (that put me at around 46) :) Big mistake! I still went and did my best but I wasn't on my game. It was annoying too that they were doing the interviews every 15 minutes and the dude was behind. On my walk home I was displeased that I had spent over an hour to get ready for a distracted 10 minutes? I didn't even feel like window shopping on the way home. I did want to stop at Rich's and buy three of my favorite fashion magazines! I was good and resisted. I went straight home, changed into my p.j.'s and slept for several hours. When I did get up I had chicken broth and gingerale. That was the best I could do. I had heartburn and a pissed off stomach. So, I lost the whole day because of a daily habit I wouldn't give up.

I did come out of bed and watch T.V. with the boys in the early evening. I sat in the "knitting" chair and sewed a bit on the Vintage Sweater. I must be the slowest sewer! It is hard to sew it up and keep the stripes lined up. I have taken some out trying to get it to look better. It is very close at this point. I am over half way on the second sleeve though I may take the first sleeve out and try again. I still need to sew the pockets in on the second sleeve and front as well as finishing the sleeves.

The Summer Sweater as modeled by Shelley Hack is close to being done as well. I cut the pattern out of a Redbook in March 1985. We were at the beach for the week of spring break. I wanted to start a project to have done by summer. (I just didn't say which summer) I went into Seaside and got Lily Sugar 'n' Cream 4ply cotton skiens at the five and dime for 79 cents a skien. Not the highest quality yarn but it will be nice to finish. The back, collar pieces and a quarter of the front were done when I started. It is a fairly easy pattern but every row is different. I have tinked a few times to make the match from front to back. It has not been frustrating but I am taking my time to finish it right. It's cute so I look forward to wearing it this summer.

As for U-Vest I am a bit frustrated. The pattern isn't well written and not easy to follow. D.B. and I even wrote into the company to tell them and get some help in finishing. They wrote back to say they were looking into in . . . I may have to ask Melissa at Lint to help me out. So that's my knitty and I'm sticking to it!

Thursday, January 26, 2006

One day

I have not worked in retail for four or so years and while I don't miss the work there are some things I do miss. Keeping up on the fashions, the discounts, helping people look better and feel better about themselves and the big one is, dressing snappy according to Marta. I miss my individuality that comes with my taste, flair and spending money. I have always dressed not according to fashion musts but by taking things vintage, new, offbeat, designer and throwing them all together. I have not had the money for quite awhile and it really reflects in my wardrobe. I'm Gap meets Old Navy sale bin. The purchases I made for causal biz are cookie cutter that would get me by. Some gals live by the motto if it fits get it in every color.

Now that my girlie side is flexing it's feminine muscle I am really feeling the lack of Marta-flair in my wardrobe. I would love some girlie shoes and purses. I miss skirts and dresses but mostly I miss the choices.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

My view today as the fog was clearing


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Monday, January 23, 2006

Bron


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Ref it up, Bron.

A tag from Bron. I'm it (duh!) but I may tag you!

Ahhh Ok - I got the tag from Bron.... here we go:


Four Jobs You've Had In Your Life
1) Barista
2) At home daycare
3) Asst. to head Designer
4) Co-owner in a consignment store


Four Movies You Could Watch Over And Over
1) Coyote Ugly
2) Flashdance
3) Gross Point Blank
4) Austin Powers


Four Places You've Lived
1) San Francisco CA
2) San Miguel de Allende Mexico
3) Stanford CA
4) Portland OR

Four TV Shows You Love To Watch
1) Charmed
2) Sex in the City
3) L Word
4) Coupling

Four Places You've Been On Holiday/Vacation
1) Disneyland
2) New York / Boston
3) Petaluma CA
4) Seattle WA

Four Blogs You Visit Daily (in no particular order, and not ones written in daily)
1) Rubber Dali
2) Bron
3) M54 (http://m54.blogspot.com/)
4) Lint -
Yarn, knitting, and a crazy good time! It's Lint! (Well, the yarn shop anyway.)

Four Of Your Favorite Foods
1) good chocolate
2) pizza / pasta
3) Chinese
4) homemade chocolate chip cookies

Four Places You'd Rather Be (no order)
1) Scotland
2) San Francisco
3) Surfing
4) Australia

Four Albums You Can't Live Without (I'm going by actual albums in vinyl I own)
1) Elvis Costello
2) Queen "Jazz"
3) Elton John "Yellow Brick Road"
4) Soundtrack from "Flashdance"

Four Vehicles You've Owned
1) 1958 Pink Edsel convertible w/continental kit
2) 1959 Edsel station wagon
3) 1962 1/2 Ford Econoline Factory Camper Van
4) 1962 Mercury

Four People To Be Tagged (do it! do it now!)
1) Rubber Dali
2) Ken
3) PDXCAT
4) Marta (no, not me!)

Saturday, January 21, 2006

A repeated message to the Dense One

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Please, just get the message and leave me be! You are bad for me, to me and when you were with me!

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Rising from the ashes

I have traveled a long hard road since 1) leaving my husband and 2) finding myself standing at ground zero after Big Man. I have learned a lot and grown tremendously in that time. I've shared the stories of my parents, Ex - husband and Big Man. Now it's time for my story.

When I left my husband I began a much needed journey in finding myself again. I disappeared into what was expected of me and who others thought I was. When I had my epiphany it's like I woke up from a long sleep. I know my husband didn't like the subtle changes. It set a panic that turned into a major control freakout. I couldn't stop changing once it started and didn't want to. You have to be yourself . If you aren't your whole life is a lie. You will eventually get caught.

I started out in a rental house that he rented for one month. He told the kids it was just for a month while I got my plans together to go to school.(all along he told everybody it was a month to make plans then I would be back) That was a lie! I told him we were getting a divorce. From the beginning he has me as the bad guy. He plays the martyr and innocent victim to all who will listen.

For the first time in my life I was on my own and trying to make a living. I may be forty three but in terms of knowledge of getting on in the world and skills that apply to jobs I'm more at early twenties. I have surprised myself in a lot of ways and made (lots of) mistakes. All in all I'm proud of myself and my willingness to try.

I started to write this last march but got busy. Since then I have had to repeat myself to all the individuals that try to cut my world down. They don't listen to me and don't respect me or my decisions. They expect to have me bend over backwards so they can walk all over me and are completely miffed I wont play.
~ My ex husband is furious that he can no longer control me but more importantly my boys. He does everything he always yelled at me about and more. He claims I am keeping the boys from him. No, you did that all by yourself.
~ My ex, that has a bizarre recollection of our parting and the rules of relationship decorum, thinks I would want a friendship (or more) with him - WTF?
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The family that left me all alone to find my way in the world now expects me to join back in the fold and suck it up for my kids. They don't know the person I am now and don't make any apologies for believing my ex- husbands lies. They left me alone when I needed them the most.

What I need now is for the unwanted folks to leave me alone and stop projecting your freakout on me. I am too busy trying to take care of life and have already had "that" conversation with you. Buh bye.

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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Good things come to those who wait but ex's never go away

I am not sure what I just saw but after coffee I'll know more. Be back soon.

So, the ex (Big Man) has been sending (via e-mail) me odd things and including me in mass mailings of things he thinks are funny enough to forward. Mostly I just think to myself WTF? and keep going. He really wants my address and phone number which I wont give to him. I told him I wanted him, given our ending, to respect my personal space and just let me be. I'm afraid he sees this as a challenge so he will spend loads of scheming time to get it then say something like "You should have just given it to me in the first place when I was playing nice . . "

This morning before I was truly awake I got an e-mail from him via
LiquidGeneration that is a f'ed up Valentine. It professed of missing me and love until an angry Leprechaun breaks through and says "I want to bite your ass and have sex with you ya prostitute, I love ya." (insert BIG WTF here) That's what I get for doing anything before coffee. Good morning to me.

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Not even when . . .

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Not EVER! Get the message!

Friday, January 13, 2006

Beware!


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As it is Friday the 13th be careful out there today.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

first hat ever knitted!

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I finished the "Stash Hat"! I learned some new skill I would like to put into practice again soon. I would also like to try kniiting with wire again.

The color in this photo is off. I took it in the bathroom with the heat lamp on for more light using my camera phone.

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Priceless

The other night at open knit after much consideration and looking at my stash I am finally knitting something, a hat. I have never made a hat and really like the pattern. There was a hat made in the window I admired only to find out it is an easy knit! The best news is it is completely made from stash yarn! After knitting the swatch in the store the pattern I really liked was for a heavier yarn so the gauge was off. The nice gal just wrote out the pattern for my yarn and needles. I get all this priceless experience and a hat for free!

I'm still sewing the Vintage sweater but it is perfect timing to have an easy, on the go project. Sewing up a sweater is not. I was back and forth on the MAX and streetcar yesterday so I have a fair bit done!

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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Holly, Shannen and Alyssa are Charmed

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The Power of Three (and later Rose)

I am glad I chose season three of Charmed. I'm not a Shannen Doherty fan but she was great in her part as Prue. I don't know much of the behind the scenes drama that surrounds Shannen but I'm wondering if she knew before taping this season that it would be her last. She does some great acting in this season. If she knew one might say it was her way of showing the producers that firing her was a mistake. I will say I'm impressed.

The other delights of season three are the episode called "Wrestling with Demons" that has some wrestling stars of the time. That originally aired on February 1st, 2001. I don't know all the wrestlers but I know are one is Booker T. It has some cheesy special effects but very enjoyable.

My favorite is the episode called "Coyote Piper". I'm guessing from her Coyote moves Holly was a party girl in her younger days and what moves they are. *sigh* I'll just stop there before I gross you out.

Let me just end this with one of my favorite things to say " The power of three will set you free". Amen to that. ;)

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Monday, January 09, 2006

fun times

I am so glad I went to QK I had a wonderful time! It has been such a long time since I have been there. I told the boys I would not stay the whole time (three hours) but I did! I missed Sharon and D not being there but re-aquianted myself with Steph and met some others. It was nice to sit and knit with people that understand , talk and laugh about our sexual orientation and knitty experiences.

I hope to attend open knit at Lint again this week. I told Steph I would be there so I better! Almost done with all the sewing on two projects then I need to start something! Checking the stash for some free ideas.

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Sunday, January 08, 2006

Yummy food

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We all went shopping last night in preparation for a fun dinner. Had a great homemade Chinese meal that was fun to shop for and wait for. It was followed by a great movie and TNA.


Hope to go to
Queer Knitting today. I have not been in so long! I bet nobody will remember me since Sharon is gone. I wish it was held on a different day but . . . It's not always all about me.


I really had a good time last Tuesday at
Lint's open knit . It was nice to hear I was totally on the right track but that others understood my need to finish and why. Some were very kind
to say what a great sweater and very much in style today.


Things to do and places to go!


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Sex and the city

Borrowed this from Bron. She was Miranda.

Which Sex and the City Player Are You?

You're upbeat, insightful, effervescent and imaginative.

Sometimes a little too imaginative... You're all about the subtext, about what's going on between the lines. You very rarely take anything at face-value.

You also have a tendency to be a little neurotic and self-absorbed, and fall for guys who are either (for the most part) emotionally unattainable or completely wrong for you.

That's okay, though, everyone loves you anyway. You're very well-liked. You always have a shoulder for your friends to cry on or an ear for them to gossip in. High-profile and fun, you're the life of the party.

Carrie quotes: "You can't make friends with a squirrel. Squirrels are just rats with cuter outfits."

"I'm thinking balls are to men, what purses are to women. It's just a little bag but we'd feel naked in public without it."

"The only thing I've ever successfully made in the kitchen is a mess. And several small fires."

It should be which one do you look like. Carrie thinks bi's are weird. I still really like the show and would love to own the complete series that is available. *sigh*

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Friday, January 06, 2006

I am who I am

I have had some comments as to why my blog and me are not almost famous. Well, I am not willing or have the desire to put that much effort into promoting myself and my blog. What would the point be for me? I am too busy being a mom and me right now. I don't usually have the time to post most of what I think about and when I do it's hastily written. I don't have the time to truly write. What I mean by that is edit and read over several times to get it the depth I would want to. Instead you get my fleeting thoughts and feelings. I'm good with it and if you continue to check me out you must be okay with it too.

Making great progress with the sewing finishing work of Vintage Sweater. Neck, shoulders and one side are done! It has been a great learning experience but more importantly it makes me feel even more empowered the more progress I make. Yeah me!

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Thursday, January 05, 2006

In the Oregonian today

Verve, 'weird perspective' makes blogger's site a hit
Thursday, January 05, 2006

Kelly Jo Horton is one of the most popular writers you've never heard of.

She's always written; she says she's "driven to write." Poems. Essays. Notes. Journal entries.

But last August something changed. Oh, Kelly Jo is still writing. But now people all over the world are reading about her best dates and favorite bands, the day she met Billy Bob Thornton, her frustrations and joys as a parent, even the conversation she had with a college student she met in an aisle at Target.

Kelly Jo has become a blogger, and in the world of Web logs, she's becoming a star. Her blog is published on MySpace.com (http://blog.myspace.com/kellyjo2), the wildly popular networking Web site with 41 million users, more page views than Google and more members than America Online.

In the few months since she started uploading onto her blog a daily tossed salad of opinions, photos and observations, the number of people reading and responding to her blog has skyrocketed.

She can't compete with rock bands and celebrities, who collect "friends" on the site that can number in the hundreds of thousands. But "when you divide the bloggers into categories," she says, "I'm in the top five almost every day" in categories such as "poetry and writing," "life, work and careers," "romance and relationships."

Kelly Jo talks about it all on her blog: facing a cancer diagnosis, kids cheating at Uno, giving pot roasts as Christmas gifts, how to control sibling rivalry (she keeps her videocamera in the kitchen and records her kids' fights), rock concert etiquette, grammatical errors and the gross birthday cake she made for her delighted teenage son. (He has a blog, too. Kelly Jo reads it regularly. She wishes more parents kept track of what their teens are writing online.)

She also writes about her acting jobs. In fact, her blog already has led to parts in independent films and a hosting job on a cable-access show called "To the Point."

"The producer of the show found me on MySpace and hired me," Kelly Jo says. She gets no pay. "It's cable. But I get exposure. I get experience."

The 42-year-old divorced mother of three, who lives in the Portland area, has a day job as a software support engineer. "But in every other spare moment I have, I'm acting or writing or doing improv" or being Mom. "I have one job that pays the bills and one that feeds my soul, is basically what it is." (Full disclosure: Kelly Jo and I do improv at ComedySportz in Portland.)


She doesn't respond, and she makes it clear on her MySpace home page that she's not blogging to meet men or collect "friends" on the site. She's selective: She'll only let you be a "friend" if you e-mail her ("I prefer e-mails that contain complete sentences"). She then checks out your own blog to see if you have things in common. "I'm not on there to collect strangers," she says. "I'm there to meet interesting people, and I have."

Half her readers are men and half women, which shows both sexes appreciate Kelly Jo's eclectic subjects and her candor. Sometimes her blog is raw. Sometimes it's utterly sentimental.

"People tell me sometimes, 'Your blogs are so interesting. Nothing ever happens in my life.' I say, 'You know, I could go to Starbucks for 10 minutes and find something to write about. It's not that my life is interesting -- it's that I pay attention to what's going on around me. Plenty of my blogs are about absolutely nothing, just my weird perspective on life."

That perspective has attracted celebrity fans (they use fake names and pictures on MySpace, but they tell Kelly Jo who they really are) and new personal friends from all over the world who e-mail Kelly Jo regularly.

"One of my friends calls it the 'coffee shop of the millennium,' " she says. "It's like the old water cooler." It's addictive, writing and reading responses and responding to those.

In five months. her blog entries have prompted readers to get checked for cancer, listen to new bands, volunteer at the Oregon Food Bank, worry that she's lonely.

She's not lonely. She has a large circle of friends outside the Internet, she says. "This just allows me to have a social life on the nights or days when I have my kids and I can't go out."

Whether she's discussing physics, almost missing a plane flight or smelling Ken dolls in Toys R Us, Kelly Jo Horton, single Portland mom, is sharing her sparking brain on the Internet every day, and the world is reading.

"I just love taking the most mundane things and making them interesting," she says. "I feel better when I'm done."

Margie Boule: marboule@aol.com; 503-221-8450

Way to go Kelly Jo!


Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Life lessons

I am feeling very proud of myself after my weekends work. The Vintage Sweater is getting sewed together by your truly! This is after picking up a project after years and finishing knitting it. To the average reader you are probably scratching your head in confusion right now. Why is this worth a post you ask yourself? Let me elaborate on a few things about myself and my past life that will give you clarity.

I don't sew period. My mom is such a good seamstress she could have done it professionally. When you have that caliber of talent and you are a tomboy you don't feel the need to sew so I didn't. My mom was disappointed that I had no desire as the only girl in the family to learn such girly things. It wasn't until after I was married and in my mid-twenties that I began knitting. My ex mother-in-law was an avid knitter. It looked so fun and cool. I asked her to teach me. We were pretty low on the pay scale so paying for classes was not an option.

I need to interrupt myself here for a moment to tell (or remind) you my ex mother-in-law never liked me. She didn't even ask me to call her by her first name until after I had the first male grandchild. That was over five years into the marriage after four years of dating. She said I wasn't good enough for her darling son. She forbid her son to marry me. She also said it wouldn't last. She had to wait 21 1/2 years to say I told you so. I can guarantee she did say it.

So she reluctantly taught me and assisted me when I had trouble. She made a big deal about how I am left handed and it was sooo hard to teach me and help. . . I now know that was total bullshit! I thought I knit left handed but I don't. I knit "right handed" just like most knitters.
What a manipulative witch! It was very confusing to me in the beginning since I thought I had to (as with most tasks) watch and reverse it in order to do it lefty. The other thing she did is tell me she would just fix things instead of showing me. "You probably cant do this yet". She didn't want me to be successful at "her" thing.

I started Vintage Sweater in mid January in 1985. I got a gift certificate from a yarn store for Christmas and waited til they had their winter sale in January. I was able to get yarn for two sweaters at that time. Neither of these ever got finished, yet. I got frustrated, Then I got a job, then my ex wanted to go to grad school (though we have yet to afford for me to go back to college) so he could make more money. The short of it is it stopped being fun so it got put away.

When I was pregnant I wanted to make a blanket for my baby. We were at Stanford for the ex to go to the grad school. I went to a local yarn shop and purchased everything to make a cotton blanket. That got finished with the help of some gals that lived in the student housing we did. That is actually what gave me the idea.

Through the years my ex M.I.L (Mother In Law) would make negative comments about my lack of follow through on these projects. I tried picking it up anew when Wil was a baby but it was sporadic at best. I even started a couple summer sweaters. She always had me make things too small, short or whatever would screw it up. I know this now but didn't see it then. Very few things got finished but I did keep them and the yarns bought in hope that "this" would be the project I would shine at. Some of these yarns and projects are in my stash to this day.

That brings us to the present. I feel in finishing Vintage Sweater or any of the projects from then shows me I am a good knitter and the better person. Even if I never wear it because it is a bit small I will know that I finished it. I am not the gullible quitter I was at that time in that relationship. She has no hold over me and cant hold me down anymore. She wouldn't stand a chance against me now. I have learned a lot of hard eye opening lessons since leaving that family and trying to make it on my own. I am a strong independent woman that wont take crap from the likes of her. Hey world, despite all the things you have thrown at me, I am still standing.


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Monday, January 02, 2006

A call to knitters and crocheters who have some time

I was scrolling through the QK ring (at the very bottom of this blog) and found this post. Any knitters out there interested? Here is the post and the link to her blog.

Katrina relief goes on. . .

Someone asked, so here's SOME info:

As of December 17th, my good online friend Gina Renay, a Biloxi MS survivor,
posted the following on her blog:
Knitters, crocheters, stitchers....
Afghans, blankets, prayer shawls, etc
are still desperately needed in the Biloxi MS area.
Your much appreciated donations can be sent to:

The Fox Den
c/o Mr. Randy May
2nd Street @ Menge Av
Pass Christian, MS 39571

who will distribute your love gifts personally.

HTH,
Noreen

ADDENDUM!!!
(A few people have had trouble getting packages accepted by UPS for the Fox Den since the address is displayed as the corner of two streets rather than a street number on one street. The staff at the Fox Den deeply thanks you for your gifts and tell that they will be moving in 2 weeks to a new location. For those of you who will be shipping items in January, here is the address of a volunteer group that distributes needed supplies to 300-400 people a day who are still living in tents, trailers and cars:


Kay Ladner
North Hancock Recovery Center
298291 Hwy 603 North
Perkinston, MS 39573)

http://noreensknitche.weblogs.us/


If you want to help and are not crafty but you belong to a church either pass this on to the womens group or ask them to donate some yarn. You can contact me if you would like. I will go through my patterns as well as free patterns available on line. I know it's a drop in the bucket but it's what I and others can do.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

New year - Still Standing

Last night Nick and I had a comfortable evening. After
dropping Wil and Josh off at Josh's house around 5pm I
saw a Dominos Pizza with a $4.99 special. I ordered it
and called Nick telling him to be hungry when I got home. Nick and I shared a pizza and watched "Band of Brothers" when we weren't playing Mario Party on the sega. That is until 8pm when TNT played TNA (Total Nonstop Action)wrestling. After that Nick wanted to shoot things in a game on the computer and I was ready to lay back, work on some finishing work on my knitty projects and relax.

I'm just sick enough to feel out of sorts and tired but not real sick. The annoying part is this is day three and it doesn't seem to be leaving anytime soon. The upside is I have slowed down and got some things done I might not otherwise have had or made time for.


So the new year has begun but doesn't feel all that different. I didn't party or even really go out last night. Some might call that lame - a sad way to ring in the new year. I say you are wrong. I spent time with someone I care about. I had a lot of fun getting my ass kicked in the game. Nick picked that game because we tend to play board games on New Years Eve but knew that a sick mom would be no challenge on a traditional board game. Instead he creamed me on the video board game! Seems like a bang up evening to me.