Today . . . Beautiful

I had an awesome post this morning but blogger ate it! I'll try to remember or just give up. :)

Most is lost to my tired over thinking brain but I will recap the day. This morning seems so long ago. The current job hours cant be expanded. That was not what I wanted to hear but I guess I will be plenty busy so no worries.


Hot Point had an appointment with Dave at Swede One today. A few small things and a possibly big one. The front turn signal lens cover fell off last week. One day I noticed it was loose then - gone. The air shocks on the tail gate were shot and didn't hold the door up so we replaced them. No need breaking the whole door huh. The left passenger window didn't work but was a simple cleaning of the contact and boom! The cruise control works now! It was a simple hose to the gas peddle. The biggie was Hot Point was running rough and not idling well in stop and go traffic. Dave tested it and tried a few things. Then he looked at the fuel system. There was a weird grease the last guy used and it was clogging the system. They took it apart and cleaned it well and put it back together. Seems to be the problem. I'll know more tomorrow as it's my day with the boys so lots of driving.

Too tired to finish. . . night!

The fog is clearing

For all this to happen while I'm the sickest I have been in about four years hasn't helped. I'm still sick and feel it from the moment I wake up. I am mobile but really taking it easy and getting as much sleep as I need. I wish I could eat better but my temp job is currently 15 hours a week. We are trying to stretch that into 22 to 25 if possible. There really isn't that much work. It's not a hard job but not one I choose to have. If my unemployment hadn't of run out I would not take this job. I am grateful to have some income after so many months of nothing.

I will try to fill you in as much as I can. There is a lot that I'm dazed about. So here you go!

My temp job is the Lunch Proctor (cool title for a not cool job) at a call center training facility. Not a sales center but for customer reps for big company's. There are three double classrooms, a break room, a set of bathrooms, five offices one being a double and a janitors closet (no sink) a.k.a my office. The break room has a sink, microwaves, four vending machines, 2 refrigerators, 2 long tables with 8 chairs and 3 garbage cans. In front and in the back of the building are designated smoking areas. My job is to keep the building in and out looking good during my shift. Right now I'm 11am to 2pm. We are going to stretch it to be 10:30 to 3or 4pm. Classes go from 6 in the morning to 11 at night. There is a team of night janitors that do most of the heavy cleaning inside.

I spend a lot of time cleaning up after smokers. I don't smoke and have nothing against smokers. I don't like to have it in my face or have my clothes smell after I have been to a bar or show but it's a free country. What I want to know is this, if a nice place to sit or stand under cover with a easily accessible ash can are maintained for you why not use it? In the front there is a nice ash tray yet people use the walkway, the parking lot, the landscape even the sidewalk in front of the ashtray. I don't get it. Is it a too cool thing? Whatever it is I get to patrol the area picking up butts and garbage. There are big garbage cans at these convenient smoking locations I rarely have to empty. Okay, I'm done ranting about inconsiderate people. Before the smokers go off on me I'm not saying all the mess is from smokers.

Now for the choices I have after all this time. In taking the LP job I found out about the call center job. I have been hired and start on March 28th. It is five weeks of paid training to be a Customer Service Rep. For a wireless company. The job is full time especially since the center is open 24/7/holidays. The pay is about what I was making on unemployment and less than Starbucks (not including tips) but they say if you do the job well there is raises and bonus'. They cant hire enough folks for this. (if you are interested I will give you the info. I would get a bonus for referring someone)

The training and the call center are 1/2 mile from each other and less than a mile from Wil's school. What would be awesome is to get an apartment close to Wil's school. There are some nice ones with pools I could afford. For $25. more than my double studio rent was. I could get a one or possibly 2 bedroom apartment.

During football season his ride plays football so Wil has to wait from 2:30 to 5:30 to get his ride home. If I lived within walking distance he would have somewhere to go instead of roaming the school grounds. That would make me feel better.

The other choice is one that I have been perusing for awhile. It is a 3 month program for women at Mount Hood Community College (MHCC). It is on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday from 10am to 1pm. There is 8 to 10 hours of homework. I also think there is more depending on what you hope to accomplish. I see it as my future and I would do any and everything to be in a good position! They help you with a variety of things starting with child care, transportation and possibly housing and jobs. Not sure on the last two. It is a college prep course plus. They help with financial aid, grant writing, career counseling and course planning. You take college placement tests and other testing to see what you would be good at and what you think you would enjoy. Basically what I didn't get in my late teens. There is a lot of mentoring and emotional support too. After you complete the program if you register for college the program pays two years of health insurance for you!

My parents couldn't afford college or loans so I was on my own. What I did go to I worked full time to afford. At one point when I was twenty I was going to Portland State University full time (3.8 GPA) working a retail job full time and training for the Portland Marathon. I lived at my parents but I paid rent and had chores.

The ex (I met when I was just shy of 18 years old having just graduated from high school) "needed" me while he went to Stanford so I lived there on and off going to school and working. It was really hard on me with no support system and the rent was high. Yes he was my fiancee but he was also working and taking full loads every semester. I supported him more than the other way around.

Back to the program. It also starts the last week in March. I'm going to the orientation on Thursday. I would rather start this program so I can get my life "started" but we are back to two basic problems. I would have to give up the LP job and I would not have housing. We all know how long this took to get that job! Where I am living was to be temporary and I have outlived my welcome. It is hard to have the boys, DB or any other guests. All (any) of it disturbs one of my roommates. It isn't a comfortable situation for any of us anymore. I need my own permanent space and the boys need to feel that my place is also theirs.

What I'm probably going to have to do is start the call center training and job now and take the program this fall. I cant do both at the same time. The training is 6am to 2:30 pm for 5 weeks. (I am in the program and can start any time as long as I do a few requirements before the program start day) I would get an apartment and start to save what I could. My ex is considering either canceling or putting the child support on hold for a later determined amount of time. He "didn't know" I was being threatened with imprisonment soon. I also couldn't pass a criminal background check and credit check for an apartment with the child support / in collections the way it is.

I will know more on Thursday after the orientation. If they could help with job and housing I would do this. I want to talk to someone there or make an appointment to get the facts before the call center starts. So you can see why my brain is on overload. All of this has come so fast and I'm trying to make the best decisions I can for my future. Also the Twilight Zone feeling after the 2 1/2 hour conversation (mostly positive) with the ex. We haven't talked like that in YEARS.

Let me end this by saying I want a life!

" You think you know what you are, what's to come. You haven't even begun" The First Slayer

Um. . . . HUH?

Well, It went way better than I expected. He said some positive things I thought I would never hear out of his mouth. Maybe in trying to beat me down and repeatedly kicking me in the gut he had some healing and a change of heart. I don't trust him (go figure) but we shall see if he follows through.

I'm still trying to get my head around everything that has happened this last week and decisions I have to make. Some are dependent on other people following through. I will elaborate when I get it sorted.

Thanks for the positive everything you all sent me. Also thank You for calling me brave. I will take the complement. I just did what I had to do to stand up for Me. I'm glad I made the decision to ask to talk. Better to be active than waiting for things to right themselves or worse. :)

Hope the sun stays out after 11am

The hazy morning sun is nice to wake up to. Sunshine seems to make even unpleasant tasks not so bad. Let's hope it stays that way. I have asked to meet with the ex. I'm going to do my best to have a positive conversation and explain that I need a chance to start over. I have some opportunities that would get me going the direction I want to go but with the current debt and threat of jail. . . Anyway, it probably wont go as I hope but I have to try.

I could use all the good vibes you can send at me NOW! Prayers welcome as well as good thoughts. I'm going to give it my best shot so wish me luck! More later (hopefully goood)

Beautiful Sunshine

The days are beautiful! It has been sunny and dare I say warm? We are fortunate to have such beautiful weather in February! I have tried to enjoy it anyway possible. Also the moon as it was rising tonight was awesome. Always enjoy the simple things.

Speaking of which, I had a great dinnertime with my son Wil tonight. We made our dinner of grilled tuna and pepper jack cheese sandwiches and chicken soup together. We sat and talked about all sorts of stuff and talked even after we were done eating. Wil is a delightful 16 year old to have around. He loves his mama.

Almost to the weekend. I am feeling better but still not well. Going to bed early as I have to get up early to drive Wil to school by 8. Hope all is well with all of you.

Reflection and choices

Even the best attitude can go awry under stress. My situation isn't ideal and has even now taken yet a few more twists that make me uncomfortable. It probably didn't help for me to be so sick feeling helpless. I gotta tell you that I haven't been that sick in at least four years. I'm still not back yet.

Jeez, I faced worse than this just last year right? It's just that it's been one thing after another non stop for the past two years. It would have been so easy to give in sooo long ago. I honestly don't know how I do keep going. Thanks for your words of encouragement Bron. They touched me.

I will try to put into words what has gone on this week over the weekend. I'm still sick and having to try to take care of stuff before and after work. I didn't even go to workshop tonight cause I'm wiped. I'm also feeling very vunerable and emotionally raw. I'm not even sure I have it all straight in my mind yet.

There is no being saved here so on I must go in search of the things that will give me peace. After all, despite the odds and badness, I am still standing.

I am sorry I lost it

Forgive me?

Blogger is good?

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Good news everyone! We've updated the way comments work. Among the many improvements are pop-up windows for comments and the ability for commenters to fill in their name and web site info no Blogger account needed.

I don't know what has happened but I no longer have the ability to chose my font style and color. My blog is not going to be pretty. :( The space on the bar where that is usually there is gone! I don't know if it's temporary or what. Good luck reading these plain little words.

Later

HOLD ON! I was just at my knitting blog (also powered by blogger) and it still has the tool bar that lets you choose! What is the deal? After six months you have to pay for it?

Much later

I got it fixed! Yeah for being a geek! I had somehow switched it from "Compose" to "Edit HTML". Guess I've been sick, stressed and angry - Opps. I have one less thing to rant about now. :)

A new low in Marta's World

Well, I just took the worse job I ever had. I don't have a choice since no other folks are lining up to hire me. It's part time and less than I was making on unemployment. I'm just so frustrated since my ex has legally bound a majority of the money I make in the name of child support. Let's review his need shall we?

At the moment he "owns" two houses, four cars, a house full of antiques and has a job that he makes over $50,000 a year. He is getting married this summer to a divorced woman with three kids. They will each sell a house and move into the other house he owns.

HE sued and won child support from the woman with no job, no money and no permanent place to live. I already owe over $5000. since July. He has taken away my right to a passport, he will garnish my wages at any job I get and gets all my tax returns. The government even sent my lack of payment on to a collection agency.

I'm so angry and frustrated at my situation. There is no way out. How can I ever move on and have a normal life? If it weren't for JR I would live on the streets or a homeless shelter. FUCK!

What does it matter if you are a good person? The shits of this world are getting it all anyway. I just want a fucking life!!!! Is that too much to ask for?

This is serious now

This past week my unemployment ran out. They said there is no extention available. I gotta tell you that is some scary stuff. I have gotten no where in finding a job since I started six long months ago. The whole ankle thing has really put my world in a spin. Who would of thought.

There is a few things I'm trying for in getting retrained but so far not getting anywhere. It's a tough world out there. I'm still doing what I can. Any help, prayers or advice gladly taken.

I'm scared but still optimistic and trying to move forward. I miss a "normal" life. I miss being on my own and my things that are packed in the basement. I miss going out for a evening with friends or shopping and indulging in that cute pair of shoes. When you get down to it I'm pretty simple. I just want a life.

Now that I'm starting to feel better come Tuesday I really gotta hit it hard and find anything. It's not that I haven't but now I have nothing to fall back on. I was counting on an extention but the state of Oregon has too many of us to take care of. Wish me luck.

A bit of knit

While I've been sick you would think I would have been knitting up a storm. Not so. I was for the most part too sick to knit. It's only been in the last couple days I have been up to it. The flu is a tricky thing. The body aches are zoned into specific places. My ankle, knees, neck and hands. My ass is sore too but that's cause I'm not used to sitting on it so much!

So I have been working on the U neck vest a bit. I almost have the back done. I started on the front while I was working on the back so I have the 8 inches of ribbing done and am ready to start on the body. I really like the yarns I picked for this and cant wait to finish!

I have the Vintage sweater done. I just need to finish working in the tails and mattress stitch it together. I already have the shoulders at the neck together and one sleeve pinned on . I got busy then sick so I haven't done as much as I would like.

I haven't gotten very far with my sons socks either. The size one needles and in the round have been a challenge. I do want to get serious on those after I'm better. It feels kind of dorky that I have to wear my reading glasses for this. I'm sure as I get better practiced at this it will be better.

There is a great simple pattern in the first Stitch and Bitch book for a cell phone cover. It also works for I Pods and palm pilots with some ajustments. I have finished knitting one and just need to stitch it up. There are a bunch of people I want to make these for. It doesn't take much time or yarn. Just add it to the list! :)

That's my knitting update for now. I hope to be better and ready for an outing today. I haven't been to a QK since November I think. They meet at Mabel's today for a couple of hours. Gives me something to look forward to. I'm so done being sick! Come Tuesday I gotta hit the ground running.

I AM a Gadgetity Gal! (now)

I got such a surprise today! DB kept telling me a Valentine present was on it's way Fed-Ex. He even checked online this morning and said it might come today.

Now I have been sick and just trying to take care of me. Sleep, drink, eat and sleep. I just want this to run it's course so I can get back to doing what needs done! A good surprise is what I needed after having to cancel what was left of my weekend plans so I could lay here and watch videos. Tougher than Professional Slacker but I have really thrown myself into this.

So, I was surprised and pleased when I did get a package today from Adagio Teas. Now I gotta tell you (hang on - simple alert!) it was packaged so nicely AND pretty! They even included a message from DB. He got me the very cool IngenuiTEA teapot I had seen on the website. (link to said site on the sidebar of this blog) It all looks so cool anyway in cute little tins and smells great but they put it all in neat boxes and wrapped it too. He also took me at my word. I said "If you love me at all you will get me some more of the Christmas blend before it's gone!" It came in a great tin with a hindged lid. YEAH!!! It was just the fun surprise I needed - Thank you DB!! I feel so special.

Yes, I did go and make some tea in my new pot. It was fun mixing my different teas I had gotten previously using my gift from Danielle. (thanks again!) I mixed vanilla, caramel and Christmas (all black tea based) and waited for the water to boil. Once that was ready I poured the water in and watched it as it seeped. Yup, I really did. It was cool to watch the tea leaves float at first but as it seeped they sank to the bottom. Once it was dark and smelled wonderful I let it drain into a mug. It was so easy and way cool! Just like the video.

I have sooo much to do!

This being sick thing is tough! I have so much I have to do and some I just want to! I have had a lot of time to think while laying lifeless for hours. Even thoughts coming out in dreams. So much to say to people and take care of.

I'm listening to the Phychedelic Furs as I type this. I really enjoyed the concert last month. The music is timeless and has a feeling of hope. That is what my adorable sweet DB has given me. He has shared his love of music with me and himself in the process. I feel very fortunate in both.

My oldest son turned 16 today. I wish I could of done something to make it a better day for him. He and his brother have gone through some tough times this past year. It's hard enough being a kid without added burden. I wish I could do more for them.

As for myself I need to get some things straightened out. No time to be sick yet I see I don't have a choice.

I'm still among you

I just spoke to the doctors nurse and she gave me all sorts of "how to ease the pain" advice. The bad news is that this flu/cold lasts 4 to 6 weeks. I'm just through week one! I don't need medical attention even thought it feels like I do. The fluids I am expectorating are the color of viral not bacterial invading so I keep on keeping on.

DB was up over the weekend and took good care of me. Bought juice, entertained my boys while I slept (a lot), even bought Canton takeout on Sunday to get me to eat. Thank you sooo much You! The Valentine flowers were so sweet too.

Gotta go eat so I can take advil. I have a list of things I gotta buy this afternoon to help.

I am alive

I don't remember the last time I was this sick. Yesterday was the worst day. Even my hair hurt. DB was coming up for a concert but I just couldn't go. He brought me lots of liquid refreshment and chicken noodle soup. He didn't even seem horrified by my sweaty, stinky unwashed mucus spewing lifeless body. Must be love or I was so sick I couldn't see. Must nap now.

"Not what I expected" and other news in Marta's World

I was feeling a bit wonky yesterday but really thought it was lack of sleep. (thanks :) You!) This morning I awoke to being sick. Everyone has or knows someone that has this flu going around. Add me to the list. I really don't have time for this but also know there is no fighting it. I laid low today not even feeling up to knitting. I did have to go to the store having come back from DB's with no milk, bread, o.j. etc. I had to drink two big cups of tea to get me that far. (I will get back to the tea in a moment) That trip was enough to warrant a nap. I totally didn't even think to get any medicine just the above listed items. After nap I made a trip to the local big chain drugstore for a supply. (of course after another big cup of tea) After consulting with the pharmacist I took my day and night pills to the register for purchase. Thankfully they were on sale so I didn't mind as much. Maybe that was the flu haze. . .

Not to long ago Danielle gave me a gift certificate to Adaigo Teas. It was quite unexpected and sweet. (Thanks again D!) I like tea almost as much as coffee. There are just certain times when only tea will do. I really like the bold and rich black teas. Tazo makes a Christmas tea I really like as well as a English breakfast blend. Flavored teas can be nice as long as the flavor isn't too overpowering. I ordered several sample sizes so I could get a sense of what they offer. WOW on the Christmas! Much better that the Joy blend Tazo does! The loose leaves have a more potent flavor than the processed bag tea. I really want more Christmas before it's gone. Thanks to Danielle I have a new obsession! I really want the cool teapot they have on special. The strainer ball is messy and annoying. I'm not normally so gadgetity but that is an easy way to make a great cup of (loose leaf) tea. I must admit the video is cool.

I am in the "Battle of the Sexes" in Portland this Sunday. We have a special start time as there is a bonus show after us (for free with a farm team admission) called Screaming Mee-Mees. (see excerpts from CSz Portland news letter)

===========Special Farm Team Battle of the Sexes ===============
On Sunday, Feb 13 at 6:30pm, our Farm Team will do their own Battle of the Sexes. Thrill as our top workshoppers show their improv stuff!In addition, Screaming Mee-Mees will tune up their improvised rock opera prior to their Seattle appearance (see story below). That show will be right after the Farm Team and is FREE with your Farm Team admission -which is already a very good entertainment deal - just $6 or $5 with a can of food for Oregon Food Bank.

==ComedySportz Battle of the Sexes!=================================
Men versus Women. It's the age old battle, and ComedySportz brings it to the CSz Arena and playing field this weekend, Feb 11 and 12, just in time for Valentine's Day. Teams composed entirely of men find themselves incomedic struggle with teams composed entirely of women. It's dramatic,it's fun, and we'll find out for sure who brings the remote home after the match. Will the women keep their dominating streak alive? Or will the men finally figure out a way to win the weekend?ComedySportz Battle of the Sexes shows are the most popular shows of the year. Good seats are still available, so make your reservations now! Friday, February 11 at 8pm Saturday, February 12 at 7pm and 9pm Call 503.236.8888 or buy those tickets on-line:https://www.portlandcomedy.com/reservations

Screaming Mee-Mees continue their march toward domination of the world visa vis improvised Rock Operas. Mostly because they are the only group doing improvised rock operas - 40 minutes off one suggestion, ALL in song. Directed by Betse Green, with keyboards by Knute Snortum, and featuring Jenny Criglar, Mary Pat McCoy, Margie Boule, Jennette Zarko, Nate Parkes and Patrick Short. Playing in Seattle on Friday, Feb 18 at 8pm at the Market Theatre. Catch both shows with a festival pass ticket and a quick drive between theatres! Check the seattleimprov.com website or call us if you need help.


That's it for now. I'm worn out sitting here typing a small amount of all I really wanted to say. Going to take my nighttime drugs and slip into a drug induced haze while watching Buffy. Nite : - )

Good Stuff

I even put a permanent link to Adaigo Teas on my blog side bar.

And so it goes

Continuing to move forward is my path. I have support and love to help guide me. I must always remember that at the end of the day/journey it's me that is there for me. That is what I can count on and believe in. I have learned this lesson over the last few years sometimes in a very painful manner.

It's nice to have someone there at the end of the day. They are there to share to victory or to console when bad things come around. To be part of a couple feels good but to be separate and equal is a nice footing to be on. It really shows who You are. It's easy to lose yourself in the other person or what "You" as a couple are supposed to be. With all I have been through and learned I never want to be in that position again. I'm not saying I will be forever single - heaven forbid! In any relationship compromises are needed to keep everyone happy but to compromise yourself to suit the other person is robbing yourself. I want to be in a relationship for the "right" reasons not just so I wont be alone. That's how I want the other to person to feel too. Not to protect me or save me but because they want to be in my life and are comfortable in the same space.

I hope my thoughts aren't too vague. I'm really (always) on a self discovery tour. I spent so many years doing the very things I've just typed above that I check in with myself to make sure I'm on the right path. Making sure the things that I want or need are not going to compromise Me. I'm not going to be on my own forever but for now it's how it is. I have so much to do for me I probably wouldn't be good in that situation anyway.

Think good thoughts as I get back to "work" on the messy that is my life. I'm trying the best I can to fix it up. Maybe after I get it straightened up I can redecorate a bit. One step at a time.

Resupply Me

Mark King is right. In his solo album One Man the song Resupply is what we all need to remember to do. What ever it is that helps you feel or find You again must be done. Life gets overwhelming and we all forget to take care of ourselves.

Hey man, can somebody show me who I am
Give me a feeling of what it is that I am running from
And let me know where I could go
I believe my heart tells me things I can't conceive
My soul screams mercy please

Resupply me with myself
Resupply me with myself
I don't want to be nobody else
I only want to be myself
I only ever wanted to be myself

Dear god, can somebody tell me where I am?
Tell me there's something more than pain
Begging you on my knees again
Just cause I cursed you, cause I cursed you


Don't desert me cause that's worst
And I need you to cure me of this thirst
Need you to cure my thirst

Resupply me with myself
Resupply me with myself
I don't want to be nobody else
I only want to be myself
I only ever wanted to be myself
I don't wanna be nobody else

Resupply me with myself
Resupply me with myself
I don't wanna be nobody else
I only wanna by myself
I only ever wanted to be myself
Somebody tell me
Who I am

I got caught up in the sh#t and forgot to keep up on Me. Yeah, things aren't the best right now but if I'm not Me what is the point? Someone else cant make you happy but they can help. Joseph has been helping me to help myself.

Always know that the smile on my face is sincere. I don't put up a false front for any reason anymore. You can have the world crashing down around your ears but still feel good and joy. I may be hurting but I defiantly continue to still stand. That seems to piss off a higher power. Sorry, but I gotta be who I am. I'm a strong, passionate, creative woman that lives life to the fullest I can so stop trying to break me. Bending is the best you are going to get.

Hot Point

I'm still getting used to it but I think I can make Hot Point my own. That's the name of my rolling refrigerator Volvo. It needs something to get out of the plain jane mode.

After getting my car back from Dave and Swede One I took it home. Once there I rubbed off the excess cleaner left from the detail job. Warren had re-vacuumed after they changed the heater fan so it looked great. Dave himself even washed my car and put the promised Swede One sticker on the back window! I'm now an official member of Swede One Team.

I put my things back in the glove box and my tool box in the boot. I even put the cute car-freshener back on the heat vent. It's like the room deodorizers that are oil scent. The tan interior screams "Decorate Me!!" so I will see what I can do.

For the most part it drives pretty well. A few quirks I need to get used to. Cruise control working would be nice but I made due. With all the AMP (after market parts) that are prefomance made for Volvo it drives smooth and well. Roll bar, suspention, body shocks and 16v dual cam over drive makes Hot Point loaded .

Having my CD player installed sure helped. The original radio had a short in it. The guy Warren sent me to at Stero King was awesome. Soon as I said Warren from Swede One sent me I was to the front of the line and they went out to the car with me. After about a 90 second conversation they quoted me a price fifty bucks less that anyone else AND they started right away! I was out of there in less than an hour and ready for a rawking road trip. Sweet.

It was good to see DB after weeks apart! The hug and smile were worth waiting for. I just wish I didn't have to wait for them. Better than not having them at all. He has been a special part of my life and made this past year easier. Thanks You. I cant believe we have known each other over a year! Wow, how time flies . . .

I'm gonna use this time job hunting, soul healing, knitting and smiling a lot. I need to resupply Me. I'm in a good place to do that now. On with the day! :)

Tag, I'm it! (You might be next!)

Danielle "tagged" me on her blog with some good questions (and complement) so that is what I will address in detail. " I pick Marta Because she is unique and I want to know what she listens to. "

1.Total amount of music files on your computer??? On Windows Multi media player there is 113 hours 9 minutes and 10 seconds. In i Tunes there is 1553 songs equaling 5.2 days or 15.56 GB. There is very little overlap. (Thank you Joseph)

2. The CD you last bought is?? I have bought a few as gifts recently but for myself it would have to be. . .hold on. . . The Explosion on my birthday.

3. What is the song you last listened to before reading this message? Hard Luck Women by KISS.

4. Write down 5 songs you often listen to or that mean a lot to you.
1. Hard luck Woman by KISS
2. Here I am by The Explosion
3. Chains of Love by Erasure
4. She's a Beauty by The Tubes
5. Kick your Ass by Zorak
6. Lose Yourself by Eminem (bonus track)
These are all songs that I have heard a different message or meaning than most. To me they are songs of truth, strength, empowering and my theme songs.

5. Who are you going to pass this stick to? (3 persons) and why? Joseph would be one for sure. He has such a passion for music. I'm interested to see if I already knew the answers. Bron because I want to know what she grooves to. The third is pdxcat Curt. I know he likes a broad range like myself. So "Tag" to the three of you!

My car is ready! I'm gonna walk down there then. . .

New month, New car, New Mermaid.

Things are looking good today. The job thing was thru a temp agency but seems on the up and up. The ad I was answering may already be filled but they had me fill out stuff and seemed positive. The office is nice digs and the gal in charge is nice. We shall see.

I get to pick up my car tomorrow. It must be better than Dave thought after Monday's conversation. I didn't get any more "we found this and would like to. . . " calls from Dave so I'm feeling positive. He even got the windshield taken care of. I just need (yes need) to do the radio and I'll be ready for a road trip. ;)

I still don't feel the usual 100 percent positive quirky me yet but more so than last week. I don't like the badness that seeped into my world. I cant let it stay around!! Seeing my DB would do wonders!