Getting to business

Yesterday I took my car in for it's much needed detail job. The guy tried to sell me the more expensive job but I said no plan B is all I need. When I got back they had indeed done the more expensive plan. They were super busy and couldn't find anyone to speak with. I went in and told the cashier what happened. She apologized and said she would ring in some discounts and see what she could do. She didn't think she could get back to the price of what I had wanted but it would be close. She went below plan B (the one I had wanted) by twenty five bucks. SWEET! It looks better (not anywhere near my old one) and feels more like mine. I will put my things in and maybe add some stickers or something!

Today I took the bull by the horns. I took the car in for whatever it needs. I also did more organizing and packing in the basement. I got tools and things ready to put in the car.

I took my car to S1 for Dave to do his magic. He found me a windshield installed pretty inexpensive. They install it at his place and he keeps it over night. Things are not as bad as he thought. So far it's not as traumatic as in the beginning. I still feel bad about my trusting the wrong people and poor choices but I'm taking responsibility for this. Hopefully I will learn.

I'm moving on and getting on with the next tasks. Job and housing. I'll keep trying. I continue moving forward in my improv and knitting. New plateaus for both. Not everything has to go bad! I gotta go iron/steam some duds for a quasi interview tomorrow. Wish me good good. :0

It is all in the way you look at it (mostly)

working on it.

Things sometimes look better in the light of day

The car doesn't look or drive any better today (I don't think)but I'm really trying to get back to the Marta I like to hang with. I'm moving on to what needs done to make me feel better about this transaction. A good detail job, some TLC from Swede One and my CD player installed would be a good start. I'm hoping that the car wash near NW is open today. It takes two hours for a complete in and out detail job. I could drop it off before rehearsal and get it in the hour between rehearsal and knitty. I need it to feel like mine. Right now it feels foreign and . . .

To have my current deck installed it is going to cost between $115. to $138. What? I already own it. Anyone know how to do this or know of a good inexpensive installer? I would just keep the tape deck radio but the deck doesn't work and there is a loose wire or something. It sometimes does weird stuff.

Must get rolling if I want to get things done this morning. Besides I feel the hot breath of teenage boys on my neck as they wait for the computer. Wish me luck, good karma or some positive something!

Too trusting sometimes

I went ahead and bought a car from some people I gave my trust to easily to. It looked really bad yesterday but still bad today. I will have to make the best of it. It will cost me more than I expected and isn't quite what was represented to me. Dave told me as I tried so hard not to cry not to worry. He told me to go have a great weekend with my kids and come back Monday morning. He said "We will take care of you so just don't worry" Thanks Dave. I'm trying.

That's all I'm gonna say right now. I feel a bit defeated and generally tired of the total non stop that seems to be My World. I'm sorry to worry DB with my uncharacteristic momentary defeatist attitude. Rest is what I need and one of those hugs that make all the bad go away.

I'm going to grab some dinner then knit a bit. The good news is I have wheels again. The glass is half full and will get topped off soon.

More later

Well, my bad. I will fill you in later. Dave told me not to worry I would be taken care of.

I'm independently mobile again! Yay Me!!

After many up and downs I can finally say I got me a car! Okay it's looks like a rolling refrigerator being white and all but it's mine! 1990 760 GLE Wagon. I hope it turns out okay having bought it before S1 viewed it.

It just had some important things done that should make Dave at Swede One happy. Yes, I bought it on the word and faith of two Car Guys and a Volvo biz guy. I feel pretty confident that Dave will back me up. If not I feel like a bozo. (and blame Ken for being so darn sick I did this on my own) I have an appointment in a bit with S1.

After my time with Dave I want to see if I can get it detailed and make an appointment for the windshield. It has a crack so I want to get it replaced. Monday I need to do DEQ and DMV so I can be legit. I feel a road trip coming on! Sadly not for my DB's birthday show. :{ I wish I could Baby.

I have the boys this weekend so it's good to have a car again. Wil has today off but Nick has Monday. It is good to have one on one time with them so no complaints. Nick has soccer tonight and basketball Saturday evening. Sunday is all about me though. :)

I have Deep Dish rehearsal then knitty class. I don't have to get up at an un holy hour to get to NW for my things. Last Sunday it took 1 1/2 hours on the bus/MAX/Streetcar to get to class. I barley missed a trolley so I was almost 20 minutes late. Not this time!

I have one knitty errand I have to do (get another set of #1 dpn for the sock project) and another I want to do. I have my swatch done and it's borderline so I want someone to look at it so I can get started!

DB gave me a cool knitty mag for Christmas. There is many things I want to make but a vest is my first project. I have wanted one but none to buy or make was right until the U neck Vest in knit.1. I like the colors it's made in but I went for a different look for the first one. I'm mixing a thin moss green mohair blend with the grey wool blend from my stash. That will be the ribbing, neckband and armhole bands. The body is and subtle turquoise to seafoam green mohair blend. It sounds strange but looks cool together.

I'll try to get some pics taken today or tomorrow to show the yarn and car. Right now I'm gonna go to Fabric Depot for the dpn set and browse. I have my swatch in the car (MY car) just in case.

Post note: Call me a bozo.

U Neck Vest

I like the gal wearing this vest too.

I'll get by with a little help

I know I'm not in this alone. I do have help to find me a car. Ken saved me from a money pit with his sleuth like ways. Generally he puts up with me and even joined Deep Dish when Karen and I bullied him. He dropped everything including some of his volunteer time at OHS to help me out on Monday. Now he is sick and I feel bad like I caused it. Sorry Ken!

Dave Davis owner and head mechanic at Swede One has checked out any cars I have brought to him and saved me too. When he doesn't recommend a car he means it. Yesterday's inspection had to have taken more than the hour allotted. The list needed extra pages. He is also keeping his ears open for any possibility for me. When looking over the report Ken and I got Monday Ken said their rates are very fair. I like that they break down the cost so you can see what things cost. The labor and the Volvo parts. They dont do after market only Volvo brand. The guys over at Swede One have really been so sweet and have gone out of their way. I feel like I have some new big brothers.



If any of you are looking a mechanic for your Volvo these guys are all top notch and big on the helpful honesty. I highly recommend them and please let them know Marta sent you. I appreciate all they have done for me and I think they would try just as hard for you. Thanks guys!

As for Ken you will have to thank him by adopting a pet from the Oregon Humane Society. If you cant have a pet come see Ken do his funny either as a farm team player or as a member of Deep Dish.

Off on more car adventure today. We shall see where it takes me. Please check out the sites for cars, dogs and laughter.

http://oregonhumane.org/
http://www.swede1.4appt.us/
http://portlandcomedy.com/

Happy Birthday to you!

Happy Birthday Joseph! Hope you have a great day today - you deserve it! Enjoy your birthday show on Friday! *KISS*



http://quizilla.com/users/anonymousnowhere/quizzes/Which%20Peanuts%20Character%20are%20You?/

The never ending roller coaster ride of life

I'm only slightly staggering from the motion sickness of yesterdays ride. I had such highs of excitement and lows of reality It was a bit much. I so thought I had a car!

I was so excited about a blue 740 wagon that I saw myself as the owner! I suspected it needed some minor things but I was getting it for less money so I thought it would work out. It was a stick with cruise control! Seat heaters on both front seats! ARE YOU GETTING THIS? The cool third seat in the very back! Not to mention power everything and a moon roof!

I paid for the one hour pre buy check. They really go through it at Swede One. Wheels come off, fluids checked, belts, timing, electrical EVERYTHING is gone over. You get a written report saying what they found, what needs fixed now and how much things will cost to do. Sadly between the report and Ken's keen eye and car knowledge it was a NO go. Things that needed done now, next month and down the road were numerous.

If I would of been on my own I don't think I would of bought that car. Yes, I really am sad because I really liked it. I also wanted it to be that easy. Ken saved Me from a rolling money pit. Most likely one of you would have seen me one the side of the road hysterically crying at some point.

Now I have to start over looking. The biggest problem is how do I get around to even see if I need Ken to check a car out? I'm a bit defeated this morning but I will find "it" again soon. I just want a boring everyday kind of day every once in awhile. *big breath in. . . Let out slowly. . I'm still standing*

1987 740 wagon

1988 740 wagon

Happenstance

There are times when you truly feel that you have control over the things that happen in your world. Other times the very thing you have been trying to do with no success is easily done. BAM. A person can be too close to the situation and an outsider can see it from a different angle. That may have happened for Me last night. I wont go into detail now but in the near future. Keep your fingers crossed, wish Me luck or pray for Me. I really just want to get all parts of my life going in the same positive direction.

Yesterday I had a great knitty class once I got there. ( I truly dont mind public transportation but from my current hood. . . yeah.) The class is for knitter's of skills above fundamental learning that want to challenge themselves with a project(s) they have never. My goals for the class are to finish Vintage sweater, learn to make socks in the round using double pointed needles (dpn), and be able to read my way through a pattern. Sometimes they can be confusing for the most seasoned of Knitter's. I feel pretty good about my progress yesterday. Pictures later today after some of today's task is complete. I'm just so happy to be knitting again! Almost a week with no knitty!

I think one of the reasons knitting is easier this time around is due in part to improv training. One of the things in improv is to just accept period. Maybe the offer doesn't make sense but you accept it, YES and it and go forward. There are some things in knitting I just don't get how it works but I know I'm doing it right so I just go with it. You cant always expect to logic out something until you get to the end and see the answer. The gal teaching the class used Me as an example yesterday to all the "Why?" people. The ones like 2-3 year olds that over use the word. "I love the way Marta accepts and moves on even if she doesn't quite get the outcome yet." I took that as a complement.

I'm going to shower, dress and go back to look at the cars I'm debating about. Hopefully Ken is able to come out later and give his two cents. I feel good about my choices. I guess it's true what they say. "Go when you are most afraid."

I am lucky

My Darling Boyfriend (DB) brought me flowers for no reason! It was sooo sweet! He showed up yesterday flowers in hand when he came into town for the concert.

We went to see Phychedelic Furs at the Roseland last night. I really enjoyed the evening. One of the warm up bands was called The Shore were good too. While I was listening and leaning on my DB I thought this is great music to make out to. : )

I got serious Friday about looking for a car. I scouted the internet, read the paper and made calls. By early afternoon I had an appointment to look a few cars. I was at the one place, Swede One, for almost three hours. I got lots of information on the different models and years. I looked at several cars for educational purposes as well as narrowing down. I test drove two different cars that I'm now debating. It's nice to have choices.

Today now that DB has gone home (sniff) I have some organizing to do and take the bus to NW P-town. I have a knitting class then a Farm Team show right after. I need to take Vintage sweater, and the stuff to start the boys socks. I also have some ideas for stuff from my stash. The back pack with my uni and two knitting bags. Sigh.

Gotta go! MeRM

"Go when you are most afraid"

I woke up very early this morning full of determination. I finally listening to myself and what has been scaring Me. Buying a used car by Myself. I have bought several but always part of a team. My biggest fear is finally picking one and in a short while needing to do some major repair. I cant afford that! I know you should always expect to spend between $200. to $500. Right off the bat after purchasing a used car. I need to 1) take a slow cleansing breath 2) take it slow and most importantly 3) really listen, focus and go with my gut on the person and car. As long as I follow my own advice I should be okay.

Last night the rehearsal of Deep Dish was awesome! We still click as a group and had a lot of fun. Gretchen is a great fit as our Director. She is willing (wanting) to work with us to get us show ready! It was nice the things she said to say about us as individuals and as a group. The work we did last night felt good. It really was more like play! I gotta say Ken is a great fit in the group too. We lost Cindy and Tom but Ken makes up for it. YEAH Deep Dish!

Today I plan to get lots done! Since it's Friday the task of the day is tie up loose ends before the weekend. Whatever comes up will get done. I hope to DIPWAD at CSz tonight but before that gets tons done. I hope to treat myself to a trip into NW to window shop or whatever.

Do what you need to everyday to feel good about You. Enjoy the simple things throughout your day and smile - maybe even laugh out loud.

What a car!

They really didn't use this car in the show but a few times. They were all too stoned to drive anyway.

KOOL!!!

After a nice walk to my local 7 Eleven to purchase a newspaper I tackled a job I had been putting off - removing any personal effects from my car.

The walk was really pretty nice. It was slighty foggy but as I progressed the 24 or so blocks (round trip) the sun broke out. The temperature was mild so I was comfortable. I enjoyed a 25 minute walk. Yeah Me!

The car cleaning didn't take too long. I figured there were things I was going to remove as they are spendy and hard to come by used (and spendy!). I found nothing of excitement in the glove box but didn't think I would. As I removed the Vovlo brand floor mats I got a wee sentimental but it soon turned to YES!!! The vending money that had been "lost" (from under the front seat?) was right there! Nick and I had checked several times knowing it had been under the seat. We (or I) needed to go to Costco for the business that night. We couldn't figure what had happened. The impact of the accident must have pushed it under the back passenger floor mat. That was money I couldn't replace! Has my luck changed? I will tell you of the run of quirky but not quite bad luck another time. : ) Happy day to all!!

She's Back!! Yeah Marta!!

Coming Through!

Now that's what I'm talking about!

I was a person on a mission (s) yesterday! I feel I really accomplished a lot in one day. I applied for some jobs I would really like. I got all my stuff in the basement organized so I know what needs packed. Hopefully I will part with a few things along the way. I always try anyway. I got a few errands done thanks to the generosity of my roommate with his car. All that done I got to go to workshop!

Sammy was sick but Herb taught a awesome work shop! Not only did I have fun I learned a new way to look at scene work. The focus of the group was great and we had a blast to boot! I had some good stage work I feel great about. Thanks Herb!

Today is more of the same high energy focus to get my life back on track. I cant take the helpless female routine! I am Marta hear Me roar! I am a Leo after all. ; )

Tonight is the first rehearsal of Deep Dish. I'm excited to get started. YEAH!!

Must get busy!

I have a new plan of attack in My World. I assign a main task to the day. That is what I work on for the most part. Follow up from the task before is okay just go back to today's task. I feel good about this approach.

The other thing I will do everyday is re-packing boxes that were thrown together to get here. I was supposed to do that after I got here but got side tracked by the rest of life. This was supposed to be temporary my living here. I honestly thought by now I would have a job and a cute little apartment of my own!

I feel good about these baby steps I'm taking. I really had a Marta's World meltdown Sunday! I cant feel helpless in this world. I'm all I have to get Me by! Don't think I don't appreciate all your support and love ( I do need all of you!) but when push comes to shove I gotta shove. After all it's Marta's World.

I finally talked to Mr. Insurance Guy. He is suddenly playing "nice". Whatever! He tried to pull some stuff on Me I was warned about. I foiled him with My knowledge and general smart. I didn't let him know I knew I was being smart so that in itself was very smart! I mail the comparisons off to him today. He will laugh his evil villain laugh as he reads them but no worries. I will laugh laugh last even if it is aided by that wished for flame thrower.

I'm in a scary place! All my projects have been completed but the ones I was to start in class (that got iced out) last Sunday! The Vintage Sweater is almost finished but there might not be enough black to complete it according to the pattern. I have stopped until I can talk to the teacher Sunday. MUST KNIT!!

My reward for tons of hard work today is the CSz workshop taught by the adorable Sammy! Also a trip to Lint very near CSz to drool and generally feel knitty. Enough talk about doing I am doing! To the basement!

Dont make Me do it!

Time to get tough (er)

Hang on to your hats. . .

To avoid a total meltdown in my world yesterday I had a good cry, a supportive phone call (or two) and a stay at home night last night. I woke today with a new sense of the Marta I prefer to be. Actually when I was knitting while watching Charmed a photo flashed on the screen of my computer that made me say "YES!" I thought to myself *That's the approach I need for a few details* It is the photo a the head of this posting. I wish I had a flame thrower.

I need my car back NOW! That is all I really need to say on that subject. I didn't do anything wrong and shouldn't be treated this way as well as a forced life style change. I hate the feeling of helplessness I have felt in this situation.

The feeling of dismay in my world is because I seem to always have some new crisis to take care of. I keep going and trying. I just feel I'm spread so thin on so many things I cant complete any one. I need focus and a renewed sense of determination. I could use some same ol' same ol' boring every once in awhile.

Why do I tell all this here? Well, I just want you to understand if I seem distracted or unususally quiet you know why. What can you do to help Me? If you have any leads on 1) a mechanically sound Volvo no more than $5000. Or want to help Me car shop CALL ME 2) Any jobs, job training ideas, spare cash laying around CALL ME, 3) Know of an (dirt cheap) apartment/long term house sitting/room above a garage/separate entrance room to rent PLEASE PLEASE CALL ME!!!!!!

I still see the glass half full with the potential of being refilled. I'm just tired of always being in fight mode. I need some "normalcy" in My world. If I didn't have 1) Joseph, My Boys and great friends 2)knitting 3)improv comedy and a stubborn streak I would have given up a long time ago.

I want to get up every morning and go to work in My own car possibly headed for a park and ride. I want to pay my bills and have a bit left over for yarn or a cute pair of shoes I saw in a window. I want to live in the privacy of my own place and not have to over worry about disturbing roommates if I have a friend over or I feel like leaving a mess in the kitchen. That would relax Me in My world. Independence, Respect and pleasure. I dont think that is too much to ask for. Now getting it. . . . .

Hold on! Still more to say.

As a change of pace I have been watching Sex in the City (taped by Joseph- Thanks Sweetie!) from the beginning. I had never seen it before. From the first episode I was hooked. What I find interesting as I have watched all twelve episodes of season one is it has gotten me thinking more about life and interactions with others. Usually the direction my brain goes has nothing (much) to do with that episode. I have thought a lot about relationships and the way "we" treat each other. Having said that there is something I would like to get off my mind.

I like to get along with everyone as much as possible. I don't like to leave someone out of "things" just because I'm not fond of them in a group situation. We all know what it feels like to be excluded-Yuck. I don't understand people that do this. Great, go ahead and have a tight circle of people but don't hurt others with your exclusivity. I'm not upset by not being one of the group, just the manner in which I'm treated. Honesty is the best- no misunderstandings. Always remember there is two (or more) sides to every story

I know it's hard to believe someone doesn't treasure my friendship. Like I said it's cool, just don't play games. If it means anything I don't dislike the people just the game. I feel better having stated that for the record. : )

When I woke up this morning the ice was gone off the skylights. It was replaced with good old Oregon rain. I'm glad we got through this without major incident. A lot of times as it turns from ice to rain tree limbs snap and break power lines. We survived eating things from the cupboard generally making due.

I hope Mr. Insurance is in the office today. I plan to make his world filled with annoying messages from Me until he snaps and calls Me back. I want "My" car back! I cant stand feeling dependent on others to get Me around. A simple trip to a Target less than a mile from Me is 2 buses! I miss My old hood! I loved taking the Streetcar and MAX to get about.

Stay tuned to Marta's world where anything can (and does) happen! ; ) Seize the moment!

Marta's World

This is how my bed looks most days. I always have projects waiting for any moments I might have in the day.

Not the day I planned

Yesterday was supposed to be fun filled with seeing my adorable boyfriend Joseph and his son Cohen. We (I have the boys) were all to go to lunch at a Portland favorite for burgers then to the taping of Portland Wrestling. The weather had other plans for us.

I spent a fair amount of time on the phone chatting about life with him as I was not able to do the things I wanted to. I needed to go to Target for a mini ironing board as well as some assorted stuff. I also needed a craft store to get the needles to start Wil and Nicks socks and straight pins for projects. I hopefully have class this afternoon. I already learned knitting in the round with double needles at Knitting with Wire but wanted to start the socks in class. I already did the swatch last week in class. No worries about Me driving in dicey conditions to get there. : )

I did get some stuff done that I never quite had time to do. I felted Laurie and Heathers purses. They are now drying in the basement. I think they both turned out nicely. Soon as they are not wet wet I will bring them up to finish drying in the warmth of My room.

Friday I had a lovely pile of finished projects on My bed. It was so nice to see all that effort and yarn turned into purses and scarves. It looked so nice I took a photo which I will share!


I have recently taken up a sweater that I started in 1985. Yes, you read right. The front and back are done and about 1/2 way done with the sleeves. I took it to my knitting class last week and we figured out where I was and what to do so I can finish it. I'm excited to get it done. I like the colors and I did a pretty good job on it. My ex-conservative mother-in-law had me make it very small. It wont be over sized like the photo - in fact it will be close if it fits at all! We followed the directions for the 32 inch chest. (WTF??)At least it's back in fashion.

My only stress today is the fact that I needed to go to the store this weekend to pick up food. On the bus is my only choice . . .ugh!

That's all I wanted to say for now. I hope you all faired well in our Winter Blast as the local news called it. It still looks slippery out there.

Finished!

Pretty pretty things!

1985 "Vintage Vogue

This is the sweater I'm finishing. My colors are Blue for the main color, a rose pink as accent and black stripes. A 32 inch chest would fit this starved model but will stretch over my curves? :)

The view in "Marta's World" today

Surprise!

SURPRISE! Did anyone know this was coming?

Did I have a rude awakening this morning. Besides the broken rule of "Never wake the Mom" I opened my curtain to icicles several inches long! I had so many emotions and feelings hit me in less than thirty seconds. Need for coffee, am I shut in?, PORTLAND WRESTLING - NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

Joseph and Cohen were driving up today to go to The PW taping with the boys and I. The matches were going to be action packed! The rumors on the matches were cage, bullrope, chain, coal miners and glove. Lots of gimmick in a three hour taping! It has officially been cancelled for today.

I don't remember a weather occurrence like this sneaking up on Me. I have always watched the news at least once a day. I usually listen to the radio or CD in the car but frequently would switch to an AM station near the top of the hour to hear the news. Once I had no cable then car I feel My world got that much smaller.

So my lovely city is shutting down for the day. Hunkering down to ride out this freezing rain. Bridges are closed and you need chains to use the freeway. All events are cancelled. I don't remember more than one bridge closing before. I just hope the wind dies down or we are going to have lots of down power lines.

The boys have requested I stop reporting today's events and get off the computer. They know how much I enjoy knitting "So go do it!"

Stay indoors and safe anyone in the Portland area. Nothing is worth getting hurt. Drink hot chocolate and enjoy a slow day.

Same window later in the day. The ice is more and longer but you cant tell in a side by side comparision.

Rose, Alyssa and my favorite, Holly.

The Ladies of "Charmed."

Ah, wow! Hot chicks in groups!

I will admit that I started watching some shows for the cast instead of the content. Charmed and Buffy started out that way. You gotta admit though, that shows about empowering women is awesome. Watching them face problems head on as best they can,sometimes faltering but moving forward and kicking butt- my kind of woman! If they also happen to be hot . . . . .

I also enjoy girl bands but if the music isn't good I cant like them. Yes, with bands they need to rawk hotly! Some hot bands that I don't mind looking at are The Donnas, The Gore-Gore Girls, Sarara Hotnights, The Go-Go's and The Bangles to name a few. There is just something so hot about already beautiful sexy women that have the talent to rawk.

I don't want you to think I only love women for their hotness. They have to have a good character, sense of humor and generally a good person. I am a package deal kind of gal. I have passed on good looking women that didn't pass the rest of the requirements. I'm just telling you you cant get by all your life telling people "I'm hot- that's why." I don't think it will get you that far. One gals opinion.

So I will leave you with some yummy photos of favorite gals - don't drool (or. . )on your keyboard!

http://thedonnas.com/
http://www.goregoregirls.com/
http://charmed-net.de/en/
http://www.upn.com/shows/buffy/
http://home.att.net/~BanglesCom/
http://www.saharahotnights.com/
http://www.geocities.com/SunsetStrip/Pavilion/4480/

The beautiful and talented gals of "Sahara Hotnights"

Swedish Gals that RAWK!

The Gore Gore Girls

Nice!

The Donnas

Torry, (sigh)Brett, Maya and Allison. I seem to like the chicks with sticks. If they knit too that is bonus points!

Please slay Me ladies!

Kira, Faith and Buffy. I have so much to say here but I will let you use your imagination.

What more can I tell You without blushing?

So, as I have said in the past, I have done a lot of living in the last four years. Along with that a lot of personal growth. I don't play games or scheme to manipulate people. I'm an open book with nothing to hide. Honesty and just being who I am is my bag. In the past I wasn't able to be the Me I am and got lost. Also in doing that to myself I was not in touch with Me.

With that said I would like to set the record straight on a few things. I was not in touch with my sexuality since I was a teenager. I didn't understand my feelings at the time nor did I talk to anyone. In my relationship with my ex-husband I wanted to fit in to his world and please. I didn't see it as that at the time but now I see it for what it was.

I was seventeen and just graduated from High school. The last three months had been difficult for Me for several reasons. For Me it was love at first sight. He says it was the same for him. He came from a well off catholic traditional family. I was raised by liberal hippie want- a- be's. I guess we shouldn't have gotten married but we were both too stubborn to give up. We were together for twenty one years. For seventeen and a half we were married. It honestly should have ended at thirteen. Hindsight being what is doesn't help unless you have a way back machine so. . . .

Back to My straightening. I didn't have a very exciting sex life and didn't blossom into the sensual creature I truly am. I don't want to say he stifled me but a glimpse into who I could be was too much for him. Same with my other ex. I'm "too much woman" for some. I also didn't see my crushes on women as I do now.

When I say "I like everything" I mean I enjoy both men and women. For those still unclear, what I'm saying is I'm Bi-sexual. I've not been in the closet but some think I was joking around. Nope, just being Me. Now for those that just "got it" don't weird out on Me. I would NEVER do anything to make you uncomfortable. Not interested? Straight? No worries! I do joke around a lot but would not expect more than what anyone is willing to give. I am glad I have lots of great friends and could always use more.

I think I know how my kids felt as they were growing toddlers. There were things they couldn't do or understand yet until they had a growth spurt, mental or otherwise. I feel like that's what I have now and again. There must still be layers of Me yet to uncover. That's okay, I'm liking it so far.

Last year was a dramatic non stop ride. Lots of bad things happened to Me but despite all I have been through I have never been happier. The answer is simple. I'm happy with the person I'm dating now. He heard all I had to say and was more than fine with it and Me. It feels so good to be myself and excepted. He is a very special man and I'm lucky to have this time with him. Thank You Sweetie.

I had more to say but am going to make this a cliff hanger! Stay tuned for more exciting opinions and confessions in Marta's World. ;)

Window to Marta's World

I look inside and like what I see in Me.

Traditions

As I was taking down the Magnetic Poetry Kit (Holiday edition) off the fridge I was reminded how much fun this is. This was the second year of this tradition for My holidays. I offer people the box and let them (without peeking) grab an amount of the words. That is what they work with to make sentence(s) of holiday cheer. You can't change or add any words-just use what you have. Some of the sentences were awesome! I thought I would reach into the box and give all of you a chance to see what you can come up with. Here are the words:

happy milk clear ornament run snow love is of angel my present eat christmas tear boy go like

Again, you need to use all the words. You may make more than one sentence but cant change the words. Meaning you cant add "ing" or "ly".

I also posted this on the CSz forum. This is Deeg's.

In my usual refrigerator long haiku style:

My present Christmas angel is happy of clear milk.
Eat boy tear love ornament, go like snow run.


Dj (a.k.a. Deeg)


Let the fun begin!

Magnetic poetry words.

In the round!

This is knitting in the round with wire! If it had more stitches it would be on four needles with the fifth being the working needle.

Fun new skills to go wild with!

Last night I took a three hour class called "Knitting with Wire". I was frustrated, excited and pleased all at the same time! The emotions of all the gals ran the gambit and changed from moment to moment. We really had to remember the saying "Don't shoot the Messenger". Darcy (the teacher) didn't make up this torcher but was merely spreading the joy.

The only real complaint I have about the class is this. The teacher has only ever made this one project and doesn't even like knitting with wire. She said that there was only one place to purchase wire. A company online. I have two different books from the library on the subject knitting with wire. You can purchase wire of all types wherever jewelry making supplies are sold! I even went online and Googled "jewelry wire". There are several sites to choose from. My beef is if you are going to teach a subject research it! Okay, I'm done.

I knew this was going to be difficult and would take practice in order to make beautiful things. I wanted to get some tips before proceeding with the book I checked out of the library in November. I really wanted some hands on to see if I wanted to pursue this. I do and will try to incorporate it in My busy world.

What was amusing to Me in this class is the snobby factor of some knitters. They definitely came down a few pegs last night! Just because you are a skilled knitter doesn't mean you can knit with wire. It takes dexterity, PATIENCE, a major sense of humor and tons of time. Some of these women fully expected to, in a three hour class, make something beautiful with time to spare!

I was at a disadvantage in that I didn't know how to knit in the round using double pointed needles. The most common way to make hats and socks is this method and a set of 4-5 double pointed needles. I gotta tell you if you learn to do a challenging skill like that with wire not only do you have it down you should never forget! Making socks for the boys should be a piece of cake in comparison.

Another skill I learned was a different way to cast on. (Continental) That is when you add the stitches on the needle before you start knitting. The way I normally do it is make "a stitch" with My fingers then add it to the needle. The wire cant be manipulated that much. It can break if twisted and kinked. That can ruin your day if you are well into a project and the wire breaks!

I stayed on the practice bracelet during the class to get the skill down but also I didn't like the class project. It was a bracelet knit in the round. I have wide hands and a small wrist so it would not be something I would want to make. In the book there is a straight bracelet with a clasp. (finding) That is what I want to make. I need to exchange the beads I got for smaller ones. No worries.

I feel I added another set of skills to my knitting and have a fun new way to make things. I'm excited at the possibilities. Time and money are all that's holding Me back!

Chain link? No, cool bracelet!

This is the practice bracelet (three rows) less that 1/2 way done binding off. (finishing the stitches)

I love (good) surprises

Today has had some fun twists and turns already! Not the day I expected to have! So much to do after a packed weekend with Heather from CSz Dallas Texas here. Also my boyfriend was here for the weekend too! Entertaining, sight seeing, the start of a 4 week knitting class as well as a show Sunday evening!

I need to do many things to get my forward motion back. I was a bit overwhelmed by all I need to do. Today was the day to hunker down and DO! While in the midst of that I received a phone call from Melissa at Lint (coolest knitting store!) that I was in the Knitting with Wire class if I was still interested! Someone couldn't make it and I was on the first on the waiting list! Ah YEAH!

That was a Christmas present from my boyfriend. I told him I wanted to try this class so he surprised on me Christmas by telling Me to sign up! The next morning I called to sign up and find out what I needed for the class. We were all disappointed when the class was full. It was already full! Even his teenage son couldnt believe it and repeated it a couple of times as if he didnt hear. "Full?" *pause* "FULL??" *longer pause* "Now what?" Indeed.

I just need to make it to the bead store by Lloyd Center to pick up the beads for class! I already got the double pointed needles I need. I will MAX it down there for the beads and class. My roommate JR said he would pick Me up after! I'm soooo excited!

I would love to tell you more but I gots to gather, shower, and generally GET MOVING!

Thanks Sweetie! KISSES!!!

Sexy Heather!

Yesterday at Clacamas Town Center (could that cheesy grin get any bigger?)

Hello Heather!

So sleep is not an important thing when you have fun people around. Just ask Luke. He decided to get up to go to work yesterday morning at 2:30 am. After working his 8 hours he picked Heather up at the airport and they came to see Me. We went to lunch, a mall, Lukes house then to NW for pizza at Escape from NY. When we were done we met Bill and Betse at Tributes pizza. They were getting take out on the way to CSz. After a rawking workshop that felt more like a good day at preschool (including coloring) some of us wanted to be scared silly at White noise. I actually didn't have the arm and lap of my boyfriend to save Me so I bowed out.

I came home to talk to my boyfriend and knit in bed. Boring? Nope! Less than an hour after Luke and Heather dropped Me off they were back! The movie doesn't start until Friday. We ended up playing talking games and being silly. Sometime after midnight Heather crawled in bed with Me and. . . . .fell asleep. That is when the silliness really began.

Luke was coming to almost 24 hours of no sleep. His plan was to stay up and go to work at 2:30 then sleep after. At one point near 2am we were making up a new children's book. I cant remember the title but I will give you a small sample.

The titled but forgotten title children's book
One fine day while the grass was dying the Stupid people jumped out of the mail box. The hexagons attacked! The Boat Polices' arrived in severals.

Real action packed so far! We will let you know when it's being published.

Heather and I get to rely on public transportation in the rain to see Portland. (thanks Drunk Guy!) I'll take her downtown on MAX and we will use the streetcar to go into NW. Right now we are still in jammies side by side on our computers. I need more coffee!

Mama's got a brand new toy

Don't mess with Me without invitation!

One year ends and another begins

I think as far as major happenings packed in one year 2004 won that prize in Marta's World. I would like this year to go smoother. How could it not right? Some was within my control but a lot of it blindsided me. Now don't get this post wrong. It's a reflective post not a pity party. If you know me you would know the answer. This is a regrouping and where do I go from here.

In looking back, things just happened before I could finish trying to "fix" the last thing. I never really had time to breathe and feel I had handle on any one thing before the next thing hit.

As I sit here I have several things that need my attention and decisions made. Not really things that can be put off. I find I cant focus on any one to solve the problem. If this is what is to be an adult count Me out! I think I just have everything heaped on at once. The holidays took my focus and I just need to get it back! that's all there is to it!

Today Heather is in Portland for a long weekend. I have only meet her on the CSz forum, through text and a few phone conversations. She is a real nice person. She is staying here with Me. It will be fun to have a tomboy/girlie girl like myself to hang with. We both like motorcycles, hiking, shopping, animals, getting dolled up, being goofy and taking care of us! No worries, I see her as a friend! Get your minds out of the gutter! Now if she were to . . . ; )

I look forward to her playing in workshop tonight. Luke is teaching so we can giggle and make him blush. She is in the show on Friday night so come on down! I'll be doing the door. Oh, is there anyone with a camera (video) that can tape the show for Heather? Let Me know.

As for the beginning of this post. I don't want anyone feeling sorry for me because that is a useless emotion. Instead lend support and encouragement because that truly helps. I'm single but not alone with the love and support of all of you. Thank you.

Four hot chicks that can rawk! Of course I like the chick with the sticks!